Reminiscence - Bill kaulitz

hesitation to loving you

                               VIOLETS POV

I stood there not knowing what to say, because what could I say? Would he kill me if I slipped up and said the wrong thing

"what are you saying..?" I asked cautiously

"I do every single thing to protect you, I do every single thing just so that you won't fall out of love with me, I've lost more than what I've gained from trying to have you love me that's if you still do"

Bill sighs before continuing " But the point I'm trying to make is that I don't care you can give me 1% of your love and I'll still take it and not even for one second would I even think of taking it for granted, I can't hide the fact that I'm in the wrong for hiding so much for you but please know that I know what I'm doing anything I do has a purpose"

What.. what is he saying

Words that flowed out his mouth as if he was trying to fix a dead garden, I'd realized my wrongs and he knows his but what I don't know is why, why did he do it why does he do the things he does.

"What more is there to you Bill.."

Bill lets out a simple smile

"All I can say is that I love you Violet and as long as you give me 1% of your heart you'll be safe but who am I kidding even if you despised me I would die for you without hesitation I would throw myself off a building if you asked me to"

I want to allow it, I want to I truly do what will I have to do to experience those butterflies in my stomach the same ones felt in the past, I don't want to do this but..

I walked up to him closer he tensed up for a bit till my lips fell upon his.

His lips left mine for a second as he whispered to me "Keep your eyes closed okay?"

I nodded and we continued to kiss.

I love you Bill but I don't have anything to show for it, I'm not like you I wouldn't die if it meant you were to be safe and I didn't want to have to kiss you right now but I felt like I owed it to you for all that you've done for me, I have no clue what you've lost due to loving me or what you have done but I know what I owe you and it's much more then I can give back to you.

You might be fine with it as our tounges intertwine at this very moment and our bodies are so tightly pressed against each other but I'm not, I'm not I feel like shit I'm not putting enough into this relationship why does this feel like a competition now, but I quit I won't participate in it I don't care if you slaughter 10 million people

Scratch that it would very much bother me but thankfully you don't actually kill. what I'm trying to say is that do whatever you want put your whole heart into this relationship and love me and I'll do the same but I won't try to do more because either way you'll still love me and I'm happy with that

but one last thing I'm happy that I've allowed myself to fall in love with you again Bill because butterflies have now filled my stomach as I feel your hair brush on me.

                               BILLS POV

mine

the lips I'm kissing belong to me, and I'm happy with that entirely for as long as I can walk on this earth she will be the girl I love, and then later in life she will be the woman I love.

One bite on her neck by the bad man and she'll be with me for an entirety, or if I were to inherit his ability I'll be able to keep her for an entirety she too will be walking the earth with me holding hands as we hold the same curse, the curse of being a vampire

the only issue is if she would love me enough to do so, so that's why I'll be waiting, waiting for the right time though it does scare me that if something were to happen to her and she wouldn't be able to come back that simple idea itself scares me.

I feel her eyes open I quickly pull away

"I thought I told you to keep them closed?"

"You're enchanting for me not to look at you" She smiled

"Enchanting? That's a way to put it" I chuckled

Thats good she still finds me attractive,

"So are you a full-on emo now with the side part completely covering half your left eye?" She asked playfully

What left eye? I don't have one Violet~

"I'm pretty sure my appearance to begin with made it very clear what my taste in fashion was, WOW and here I thought my own girlfriend would know that" I smiled

she giggled back and stopped asking about my hair after that thankfully.

It was all calm and happy we were now a couple again, I wish it stayed calm for longer as I started to feel a terrible gut instinct stab into me so suddenly
...

fuck

"you should head over to your house," I said pointing toward the window that showed her bedroom

"Oh ok, will I see you at school tomorrow?" She asked

"mhm bye" I kiss her goodbye before she leaves

Tom isn't fine, I feel it and he's been gone for who knows how long, Once I see Violet enter her room I bolt out of the house and to the forest.

As I'm running there I realize how much this forest has changed me what has happened my life revolves around this forest and yet all I want to do is burn it down completely and make s'mores out of the fire afterward with the stick being the bad man's severed arm. Eh, that would be gross I bet his blood tastes bitter and rotten.

I get there to see Tom getting bitten on I quickly over before Tom yells " STOP don't come any closer right now"

I was confused till I saw her

She was back for sure and she certainly wasn't excited to see me, unfortunately, tom's sudden yelling had made Elora pull away putting her attention toward me now

"Hi Elora," I say trying to make a friendly wave

"You fucked up so badly this is all your fault, all your fault!" She shoves me before Tom gets between us

Looks like she's the same as the last time I saw her, still a bitch who had left my brother in the worst state possible.

"Why are you stopping him, Tom? He killed me! He killed me! And now I've turned into this gross blood-sucking monster! It's only fair he gets the same pain back"

"I've lived with the curse for so long I think it's safe to say I've suffered more than you know Elora so stop being a fucking baby now and deal with it like we've all been doing" I responded

She may be back but she's still slow, dumb an idiot to say the least a girl that might've been sweet in the beginning but turned into a bitch as I've said previously

I wish she never came back and though my brother still wants her, I'll find a way

a way to get rid of her because that's for the better, but in order, for that, I would need that small ass knife that the bad man owns, and that itself will be a pain in the ass to get a hold of it's fine anyway because once I do have that knife in my hand her blood will paint it crimson red with no trace of who the murder was

with no trace of me, Bill Kaulitz killing her

Elora I'll get rid of your suffering like I've done before. you'll no longer be cursed

because you'll be buried.