ruthless ~sebastian sallow x reader~

chapter 6~ feelings

"just listen... dearest sirona its y/n. i wasnt able to sleep at all last night, not even eat. got stuck doing his dirty work, but its easy since he finds me attractive. i hope you laughed at that just as much as i did. ill be over as soon as i can, but seeing as i still have a fulls day and then some maybe ill be over when i can. T.H wont let up about how he got stuck with the shitty one. but V.R said it sucked cause he was the top man. petty fighting if you ask me. ill tell you more when i get there. always love y/n" sebastian read. 

"who is T.H and V.R" he asked ominis. "code names i would assume, if its so hush hush she wouldnt go into great detail about it until they are in person" ominis cleared it up, sebastian took his leave for the broomsticks. you managed to both get there at the same time. you bumped into him when you were in thought. "my dearest apologies, i was distracted..." you only looked up to see him. "im not sorry anymore" you spoke walking in and shutting the door behind you leaving him staring at it. 

you sat and looked at sirona. "my my. you look tired" she said with a smile. "i am, going on what 40 hours no sleep." you said laughing. sebastian heard it and sat next to you. "40?" he questioned you gave him a side eye. "depending if austin can get you out then youll be free" sirona spoke looking at sebastian. "you know who said he would talk to his right hand man about taking the curse off me." 

she looked shocked. "he really does have a thing for you" she laughed making you laugh. "have you ate?" sebastian asked. "not in 3 days, but ill be fine until tomorrow" you said only to watch him pull out some galleons. "what ever she likes" he said handing the money to sirona. 

she did bring out something you would like. you gave her a smile and started picking at it. you rarely have an appetite anymore and it shows. it only made sebastian worry about you in a whole. "ive never seen her like this before, they are working her to death" sirona spoke to him. "all she does is sleep all day" sebastian told her. 

sirona didnt know that, she didnt know you were falling behind, she didnt know all you did was sleep, she didnt know you only really ate lunch and barely at that. "y/n?" sirona called your name making you look. "if you need to hide here for a few i promise i can help you" she was concerned. "ill be fine, rookwood doesnt treat me as bad as harlow anyway. i dont get hit as much. my ass doesnt get touched" you spoke up. "harlow touched you?" she asked

"used to, rookwood stops him now" you said, but a certain man next to you heard the names and suddenly the V.R and T.H made since to him. now hes conflicted. "your helping rookwood?" he asked you. "sebastian" sirona spoke trying to tell him to shut up. "guess i outed myself" you spoke sadly. 

"its been hard on her, shes only ever had me to talk to sebastian. it was just recently that i told austin. and tom, well tom had the same thing happen. y/n talks to jax through tom" sirona explained. sebastian felt angry. "you were there when they did it to anne" he was almost yelling. 

"no, i found out when i heard you talking to tom. i wish i could have been there to stop it. but i wasnt, i was trying to find a way to free all the girls harlow had been raping in his cave" you spoke with tears in your eyes. sebastian looked at you with remorse. "and it took austins help, it took him helping me to give me some hope. i felt so useless all the time, and your little gimmicks didnt help sallow." you added. "y/n i" you had to cut him off. "so no, i didnt have anything to do with it, but ive felt like shit ever since, just like i do for everyone else i cant help. thats all i want to do is help. but i cant." you got up only for sirona to grab you. "finish the food please, sebastian go sit at the table or leave" she spoke and he did. he sat at the other end of the restaurant. 

"im sorry y/n" sirona tried to apologize. "i feel like im suffering in my own world" you spoke. "have you talked to ominis lately" 

you looked at her with teary eyes. "no i havent. not even garreth, i sent him an owl but...i feel like hes upset. and i dont want to tell him, he wouldnt get it" you spoke. "you told him about your curse and your family. maybe you can try" sirona spoke highly of garreth. 

she easily knew she could persuade him. "well...ill see you tomorrow, he gave me the next 2 days off" you said with a small smile leaving sebastian following behind you. sirona gave him a look, she knew he liked you, she also knew his emotions always got the best of him. 

"y/n" he said running after you and walking next to you. "what?" you asked upset. "im sorry for what i did in there" you gave him a look. "your never sorry for anything, i havent slept in 40 hours well now 41, but i dont want to snap at you sallow please" you were almost begging at this point for him to leave you alone. 

"y/n you can talk to me" he spoke trying to reason with you. "i cant, no one is supposed to know, not even sirona, not even austin. i am alone in this." you said getting more and more frustrated and emotional. "you arent alone. you never are. you just feel like you cant tell anyone" he said grabbing your shoulders and stopping you. his grip was tight, but once he realized how tight it was he loosened up, something rarely ever done. 

"you have me. i will listen to all of your problems" he said looking you in the eyes. you looked into his only making him feel more breathless. "so you can poke fun of me again sebastian?" you asked. "im done doing that. honest to everything i have" he said tightening his grip a little. 

"sebastian i" he cut you off something he was good at. "your not alone, you have me. you have ominis. you have austin. we can help you" you didnt believe him for a second. "im really tired, i just want to go to bed" you were on the verge of tears from exhaustion. 

"come here" he opened his arms. when you did he gave you a hug and then picked you up. "you know my legs work right?" you asked. "not when you look like your going to fall over and turn to dust" 

"id rather ominis do this then you" you spoke up. "well hes not here now is he" sebastians smartass mouth always found a way to piss you off in someway shape or form. you fell asleep on his shoulder halfway through. 

sebastian knew this cause you got heavier, when he looked over there you were sleeping peaceful to him. you were beautiful. the only logical thing for 12am was to take you to his dorm which he knew you wouldnt like anyway. so when he stepped in he was greeted by austin and ominis. 

"shes been gone for 2 days, hes waiting for her at the three broomsticks. talk about obsessed" ominis spoke to austin. "they just walked in and it looks like shes dead asleep" austin spoke it out for ominis. sebastian placed you on his bed as careful as he could. "rookwood and harlow, thats who she sees everynight" sebastian spoke looking at ominis. 

"shes with the villain and the same people who cursed your sister" ominis was off put by this. "actually" sebastian tried to speak but got cut off by austin.

"her parents had debt to rookwood, in return they gave him y/n. she never wanted to go, but due to her curse she has no home, let alone anyone. she feels alone. she doesnt like it over there, harlow touches her and rookwood hits on her. shes a toy to them basically" austin explained to ominis. "worse then i thought, its amazing shes survived this long" ominis spoke 

"she hadnt eated in 3 days or slept in 40 hours. i wouldnt be surprised if she didn't wake up for 3 days" sebastian spoke while he looked at you smiling. "safe to say i think his days of girls are over" austin said laughing only for ominis to agree. "whats one more girl in my bed" he remarked snarky. 

"its a girl you actually care for, it means everything to you" austin laughed. "not to mention shes going to hate him when she wakes up in his bed" ominis laughed more. sebastian stood there. "ever wonder why she only sleeps in 2 rooms? hers and garreths? she feels safer and like she can actually sleep" ominis cleared the air for them. 

sebastian crawled into his bed next to you putting his arm under your head and the other around you. he wanted to keep his distance so it wasnt so much of a shock. "i want to be closer" he mumbled to ominis. "you want to, but you cant" ominis laughed they always kept the candles lit, it never mattered to sebastian, but to you it would matter. 

you slept there just as much as sebastian slept next to you. he liked it, he liked it a lot more then he thought he would. he liked it more then he would care to admit.