It was year 2022 when I transferred to a state university. Same course lang din naman. Kaso, ang hirap pala maging irregular student huhu (kahit same course, basta transferee, matik irreg if hindi same ng subjects sa year level). I felt homeless for a moment. I felt lost. The drive to be academically excellent suddenly became nonexistent.
Para akong nangangapa sa dilim.
The thing is, I am naturally panicky. I tend to get nervous a lot. My mind can't help but to overthink.
There was a time during the early days of classes. My professor in one of my major subjects in first year held a special class. Since irreg nga ako, may sarili akong schedule. It happened that the time he had set for the special class conflicted with my schedule so I was not able to attend. He grouped the freshmen for the reporting.
It was difficult to approach and ask my classmates whoever among them still had vacancy for additional member. IDK why, but they tend to seenzone everyone else in the class GC. Fortunately, may mga kasama akong irreg din so we helped each other in order to join a certain group since there should be only 3 groups.
Overthinking got me look forward to the future haha so as anxiousness kicked in so I added all of my classmates who were very active in the GC. Some did accept me haha.
Pero no'ng nahimasmasan na ako, I cancelled my friend requests to those who didn't accept me. Wala lang. 'Pag naaalala ko kasi at nakikita ko sila sa campus, I feel pathetic. Don't mind me, plz. 😭 😂
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