I wasn't looking for what I found
But I found what I was looking for
I know it doesn't quite seem right
But I know I'll make it out tonight
I'll be safe and I'll be alright
I just need a little bit more time
Sometimes the pain hits
Sometimes my mind says I'm not worth it
But I know better
I know better
I know I really don't speak out
I know I really don't reach out
But these problems
They affect me too
They build up like a bubble
Ready to burst
It rises
To the surface
Where tension makes it bust
I can't help it really
I don't understand what I'm feeling
Oh I don't understand what I'm feeling
What's happening
What's happening
What's going on
I don't understand
These feelings they bubble
And panic reaches my soul
I just wanna get away
(I just wanna get away)
I just wanna stop the pain
(I just wanna stop the pain)
A needle pricks a bubble
It gets too loud
It gets too quite
There's not enough
There's too much
I just want it
I just want it
To stop
The world goes still
The world goes quite
My thoughts are finally silent
And everything makes sense
At least in the moment
I grab a page
Just to hear it rip
I break a pen in two
No one bats an eye
It's like I'm invisible
It's like my pain is silent
And then there's this unbearable silence
There's no movement
No change
And then everything goes crashing down
A flood gate opens
And a snap brings me back to reality
I stare down at my hands
In them lays a pen
It's broken
I look at my classmates
They look scared
They look scared of me
I look at my teacher
She sees me
(She sees me)
And then she leaves me
And then class resumes
In a slient room
And I'm all alone again
All alone again...
I'm all alone again...
This wasn't what I was looking for
But it's what I found
I needed to let it out
I needed to get it off my chest
Because now I feel alright
Just sit sit tight
I'm healing I know
It's helps my soul
And I'll be better after a while
I'll feel better after a while
I'm getting better after a while
