𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐝 𝐰𝐚𝐯𝐞 || 𝐣𝐣 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤

The Gold

A/N: before I start this chapter I want everyone to know that there will be a suicide attempt, if anyone gets triggered by this please skip! And also if you guys are going through anything similar, my messages are always open!
- take care (:

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It's been three days, three long days without my best friends. It hurts even more because it's all my fault.

The only things I've been doing these past couple of days are, sleeping, drinking, or locking myself away in my bedroom.

The pogues have tried several times to have me come out. I've just told them, I'm tired and I need to rest for the first day of school, which is in three days. My parents are forcing me to go to the kook school, so that's even better.

I'm currently laying in my bed in clothes that I haven't changed out of since two nights ago. Gross, I know. I finally pull myself out of bed and I decide to take a shower.

I finish and change into a navy blue hoodie with three tiny white flowers printed across it. I then slide on some denim shorts. Lastly, I slip on my dirty white converse.

I then hop out of my window and I start to walk aimlessly. I don't know where I'm going, I just need to escape that house. My parents have been ignoring me and I haven't been talking to Kie.

It's been a few hours and I'm currently sitting on a random beach and sobbing. My cries get cut off by my phone. It's Kie, she's asking where I'm at. I ignore her, but a few moments later all the pogues start to spam me.

I decide to walk home because it's getting cold out. As I walk, I see a pharmacy. I decide to go in and buy something.  I've always been a good liar, so I easily got a free tube of pills.

! TW ! Suicide attempt

"Thank you, sir." I thank before walking out. I quickly decide to go home and take them.

I sit on my bed and open the tube of pills. I dump them into my shaky hand. I then pop them into my mouth with a sip of water.

I lay down and stare at the ceiling. My body starts to go numb but tingly. Next thing I know, everything goes black and quiet.

"Marley, wake up!" I hear someone shout as they shake me. My eyes are too heavy, I can't open them. My body just feels numb, and my mind is blank. It feels peaceful.

Suddenly, my eyes shoot open. I see JJ hovering over me as tears trickle down his cheeks. "What JJ, what?" I ask angrily as I try to hide the disappointment in my voice.

"What did you take?" JJ asks, sounding insanely worried.

"Pills, for my hand. Why?" I lie without hesitation.

"Were you trying to overdose?" He asks, I can tell he isn't sure if he want to know the answer.

"No." I numbly shrug as I sit up in my bed.

"You can talk to me." He says as he sits down in front of me.

"I don't need to talk, JJ. I'm fine, can't you guys see that?" I mutter angrily. JJ just looks at me sadly before walking out. I don't know if he believes me or not, but I hope he does.

The next three days are just a loop. I wake up, drink, and fall back asleep until two in the morning. And I do it all over again.

"Marley, wake up!" My Dad shouts. "It's your first day of school!" He continues.

I pull myself up and slide my uniform on. I then do my makeup and straighten my hair. Lastly, I slide on my light purple converse.

I run downstairs and grab my book bag. I don't bother to stop for food. I just want to get this over with because I know it's gonna suck.