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What do you do when you don't even know why you are feeling what you are feeling?
I know I feel sad but why?
Cause my college life is not on track?
Or is it the fact that I am sick all the time and tired as fuck?
It's been the first day at college after Christmas break and even now I can't comprehend how easily I am breaking apart.

         It's not just tears.
It's the laboured breathing.
The slight shaking of my hands.
That repeated looming voice
in my head creating a
vortex of thoughts that I
no longer can escape.
That unknown urge to scream at the world at the top of your lungs yet no voice comes out. A helpless rumble felt on my throat, all silent .
Wishing to let the earth devour me
Or drown in deep waters
whichever one I am fine
If that's the price to pay
To choke the silent thoughts.

Quite melodramatic aren't I?
Yet it is only through these words I am able to understand myself.
Even now, not studying anything
I feel no stress.
What good are my grades
if I feel like shit?

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