Follow your Hart: Is this love?

3rd Grade

I broke up with Riley. I messed up. Big time. Even more than I had before. But something.. Interresting happened that night I broke up with her.
~Flashback~
After I calmed down a bit, I decided to leave the house, take a walk to try to clear my head. That was my best option for now. So, I leave the house, walking around the streets of New York after dark. No one seems to notice me. What's new there? As I'm walking, I hear someone call my name. "Maya!" I look around, not seeing anyone I know and assume that they're calling someone else who happens to have my name too. So I just let it go. Then I hear it again, but closer. "Maya! Is that you!?" I started to hear a familier voice. I suddenly feel a hand on my shoulder, spinning me around to face them. "Maya what are you doing out here alone this late?!" I saw a shocked Farkle with someone who I assume is his father. I sigh, starting to get annoyed. I was supposed to be alone. I didn't want to talk to anyone I knew. "Why are you out here all alone? You could've been kidnapped." I roll my eyes. "Just leave me alone, nerdwad! I'm trying to get my mind off of something, okay!" I spat out, yanking my shoulder from his grip, walking in the opposite direction. "Maya, please.. Tell me what's wrong.. I can help." I heard Farkle plead. Hearing him say those words fill me with anger. I quickly spin around, clenching my fists. "HOW CAN YOU FUCKIN' HELP IF YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL!!" I yelled right before tears started streaming down my face. He was shocked. I could tell, but he felt some other way too, but I couldn't put my fingure on it. He walked over to me, wrapping his arms around me in a gentle hug. "You can tell me, I can try to help." He whispered in my ear. I finally hug him back as my tears start to slowly lesson, but they still roll down my red cheeks. "I.. I broke up with Riley.." I finally choked out after I calmed down, pulling away from the hug. His eyes widen. "You two were dating?" He asked jokingly. I grow a bit upset. "This is no time for joking, Farkle! I lost my girlfriend and even worse.. My best friend.." I said sadly, looking down. "Okay," he starts, getting my attention, "how about you talk to her? Even if she doesn't like you, I'm sure she'd be more than happy to be friends with you again!" He said cheerfully, trying to cheer me up. I don't say anything in return, but just look at him as I nod slightly. He lays his hands on my shoulders, looking into my eyes. "Just talk to her. I promise, everything will be alright between you two."
~Real time~
I've called her several times. Either there's no answer or one of her parents answer and say that Riley's busy or not there. So I've given up on calling her at this point. It's been a couple weeks since I broke up with Riley. We haven't talked since. She probably told her parents that I hurt her, I know they definitely won't want anything to do with me now. They probably won't even let Riley mention me in any way, shape, or form. But I don't care.. Well I say that, but, in reality, it's killing me inside. I want my friend back! Whether we get back together or not, I just want my best friend back. I've started walking to school. It's the first day of the third grade. I so badly don't want to go, but I slightly hope that I'll see Riley, so maybe she could at least forgive me. But I beg that we won't be in the same home room again, but, knowing my luck, we probably will be along with Josh and probably some other jerk kid too. I arrive at school a little late, but I don't care, they're just going to have to deal with me being late. I just don't care anymore if I am. I see papers hung outside of the principal's office showing what homeroom I'm in. Mrs. Patterson. Her name sounds annoying. I hope she isn't an annoying teacher. My heart sinks when I notice that I'm in a class with Riley and Josh and Farkle. Come on. Farkle too? Really. Ugh. His constant flirting is annoying. I walk to my homeroom class, as soon as I open the door, everyone immedietly stares at me like I killed someone. I try to ignore Riley, I can't deal with that right now. The teacher looks at me, smiling wide. "Hello!" she starts happily. Ugh. She's too cheerful. "I'm Mrs. Patterson, and who might you be?" She's already annoying. I look up at her, "uhh.. Maya.. I'm- Maya." She smiles wide. "Well Maya, go take a seat anywhere you like!" I'm trying not to make eye contact with Riley. I'm trying so hard not to but I look at her anyway. To my surprise, she's already looking at me. She smiles slightly at me, looking over at an empty desk beside her. I suppose she's forgiven me and wants me to sit next to her. So I do. I go sit next to her, though, walking a bit slow. I'm not sure if I'm ready to talk to her again, hearing how mad she was when I first broke up with her. I make my way to the seat, sitting down next to Riley. I look around, noticing that there are several other empty seats and I mentally punch myself in the face. Dang it! Why didn't I see those seats before? I- "Maya.." I hear Riley, quickly breaking me away from my thoughts. My eyes widen. It's been a while since I've heard her say my name. Or just heard her in general. I look over at her, "yeah?" I say a little nervous. "I'm sorry.. For yelling what I did before I left.. I was just.. Upset." She makes eye contact with me while saying that, causing butterflies to come into my stomach. But, I ignore them. I smile slightly. "It's okay." I look down. "Riley," I start, looking back at her, "you don't have to appologize, I do. I was the reason you were mad. You had every reason to yell that at me. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have been mad. I'm sorry.." I finish saying that, looking back down at the floor. She quickly wraps her arms around me tightly, catching me off guard. "Wha-" I choked out. "I still love you.." She whispered in my ear, causing my cheeks to burn slightly. She pulls away from the hug, looking into my eyes, "but we should just stay friends.. We won't lose eachother as easily as before like that." I look down slightly, sighing. "Are you okay with that?" I look back up at her, fake smiling. "Yeah.. Yeah.. I'll be fine.." My voice low. She places her hand on my shoulder, looking into my eyes. "Don't worry.. I'll still be here for you, you're still my best friend." Hearing her say that causes a small smile to make its way onto my face, "thank you, Riles." I pull her in for a tight hug, with her hugging me back. "It's what I'm here for.." So, the school day passes by, I'm about to go back home, when Riley quickly stops me by putting her hand on my shoulder. "Maya, do you want to come home with me?" she asked hopefully. "Uhh.." I was hesitant to answer, not knowing what to say, I quickly choke out an "I can't" without realizing it. Her smile quickly fades. "Aww why not?" She asked, obviously disappointed. Shoot. Why did I say that? "Uh.. B-because I.." Why don't I just tell her the truth? Because I can't. She won't understand. "I jus-" I take a deep breath, a smile slightly making its way onto my face. "I can." As soon as I muttered out those words, she smiles wide. "YAAAAAY!!!!" She yells while jumping up and down happily, grabbing my hands in an attempt for me to jump too. I don't jump with her, but I instead giggle slightly at her happiness. She is so cute.. Why did I break up with her any way? She's so beautiful and.. I soon realize that I had started staring at her. I quickly look away as my face begins to grow hot from blush. "Are you okay?" Riley asked as she put her arm around me. "Wha- y-yeah.. I'm fine.." I mutter out. "C'mon! My mom's waiting for us!" She says happily, grabbing my hand, pulling me outside of the school. "Don't you mean you. She doesn't know I'm coming over, does she?" Riley's eyes widen as she lets out a loud gasp. "Oh no! I forgot to ask! But I'm sure she'll let you! She did seem to like you when we did hang out!" I roll my eyes as I let out a small sigh. "Sure she did." I said sarcastically, but Riley didn't notice. "See! You know!" I sigh slightly as a small smile makes its way onto my face. She grabs my hand, causing a small blush to make its way onto my face. She pulls me to her mom's car. She gets in, but I don't. "Maya, why aren't you getting in?" Riley asked, her mom quickly turned around, whispering something to Riley. Riley's joy quickly deflates. "But mom!" She yelled. "Close the door and lets go." She told Riley sternly. Riley looks at me with puppy dog eyes, tears threatning to fall. "Bye Maya.." She said sadly before she closed the door as her mom quickly sped off. I sigh, looking down sadly. "Whatever. I knrw she didn't like me." With my head hanging, I slowly walk back home, not caring about anything. As I looked back up, I notice the sky was grey. Of course it is. I don't freakin' care anymore. If I get sick, oh well. If I'm soaking wet, oh well. I don't care. But, I do get home right before it starts raining. I don't know how though. I expected to get rained on. Whatever. I guess its better. I go into my room, closing the door. As soon as I sit on my bed, there's a knock on the door. I sigh. I don't want to get it, but I get up, going to see who it is. I open it to see a tall man standing infront of me wearing a suit. "Hello. I am Peter VanHertz. I'm sorry to say this, but you're coming with me."