Always

Chapter 15

"Okay, let me get get this straight. You and Max kissed at his house a while ago, you both ignored what happened, tough you acted civilized and friendly with each other, then at the Baku race afterparty you then slept together, but Danny caught you so you ran away, and then bought a plane ticket to Switzerland, even though you should be in Mami for the next Grad prix taking place in 4 days."

" Well technically me and Max didn't sleep together, but yes." I say looking at Seb, I can literally see the wheels of his brain turning as he thinks about the whole situation.

The moment I woke up after that night I knew I needed to talk to him asking for help, Seb has always been there for me, acting like a father figure when I needed one. Trough the years he and I have formed a very close bond, from me going hiking with him and his family every vacation and him being at my graduation and even attending Pride festivals with me, making sure that I always know loving someone is never a crime, Seb has been there.

He was also apart from the few people that know what happened between me and Max, and I know I can ask him for an unbiased opinion on the current situation.

" Well do you think it was a one time thing or not?" He ask." That's the thing I truly don't know." I answer while running my hand through my hair. " Then I think the real question is do you want it to only be a one time thing or do you want it to happen again?" Fuck Sebastian and his ungodly good emotional intelligence.

"I don't know, the whole thing made past feelings resurface, and as much as I want to say no I know I would be lying."

"Okay, I'm going to say what I think, but don't interrupt I know you have a tendency to do that when someone says something you don't like." Ughh why did I come here again.

"I honestly think, both of your feelings never disappeared for each other, you have loved each other since the moment you met, and I think that this whole situation is making you realize that no matter what Max has always been the one for you, and will always be. I know both of you feel this way otherwise you wouldn't have come here and he wouldn't have asked me so many times how you were doing while I was still racing."

"He asked about me?" I asked shocked, I didn't think he wanted anything to do with me after the way he ended things.

" That's all you got from all that? But yes he did, So you are going to go to Mami sit down with him and tell him how you truly feel, and if he doesn't want to because he is afraid, try to talk some sense into him, and think about how hard it was for you to come out, but don't stop fighting for him because if there is something I am certain about in this life it's that you two have the most beautiful and pure love I have ever seen."

His statement caught me so off guard that I'm speechless, " Yeah Alex, listen to dad, you and Max would make such a cute couple." I turn to see Emilie, Sebs eldest daughter. "Em what did I say, you should stay with mom in the kitchen while I talk with Alex."

"I did, mom told me to get you, the food is done." She says in a matter of fact tone, she is at that stage where she challenges everything he says, and let me tell you it's hilarious how smart that girl is at comebacks.

Seb gives me a supportive pat on the back before standing up and heading to the kitchen. The whole dinner was amazing, not only the food but the whole vibe of the kids fighting, to me and Hanna talking about the job I got at the museum, though in the back of my mind me and Sebs conversation kept replaying.

As much as I don't want to admit to it, I think he is right, I have always loved Max, even at the beginning although I didn't understand why I knew I loved him and I still do. Tough the fear of him not feeling the same way, or not wanting to accept the fact that if something happens between us again I don't want to hide from the public forever, is there and I'm so fucking scared.

I know I can't use that as excuse tough, knowing I will never love anyone like I love Max, if he doesn't want it, I will leave him alone let him be happy with someone else but I need to know if there is even a slight chance that after all these years he still feels something for me.

Later that night, as I'm laying in my bed, the one Seb and Hanna has for me in case I ever need a place to stay, I hear a knock on my door. " Come in!"

I see Em walking in, before falling down onto me, "Alex why do you have to leave? You just got here" I put my arms around her, hugging her tightly, " I have to go watch my brother race, but I promise I will come and visit again soon, and too make up for me leaving I will bring a lot of presents." " Promise?" She holds her pinky out for me and I pull my pinky out to join hers "Promise" She seems contempt with me answer, but keeps laying on top off me.

" You know, I meant what I said earlier, you should talk to him, I want to see you happy." She says, shocking me, for a 12 year old she sure is really mature sometimes, " I am happy," " Yeah but not like when you were with him, I maybe was really young but I remember that one summer the two of you visited, I have never seen you that happy, and besides he isn't too bad too look at is he?" The last part making me laugh hysterically, I can remember how we had tea parties when she was little and now hearing her say Max is attractive makes me realize how much she has truly grown up.

After I have calmed down we gossip the night away, her telling me all the drama at school and about a boy she likes, although she made me promise I won't tell her dad. To me telling her all about the F1 drama and stories of Charles new girlfriend. Soon she is vast asleep, but I don't wake her just move her aside so that she has more space, I turn off the light and let my dreams overtake me.

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SebastianVettel: love you Alex❤️
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EmilieVettel: my favorite big brother finally visited
| Alexander_leclerc replied: your dad is going to kill you for having an instagram account without asking him. But also I'm your only big brother?!

User6: Alex and Seb are truly me favorite father son duo, even if aren't actually related 😭

User8: Alex giving us the Sebastian content we all needed🙌

Landonorris: so this is where you disappeared too

User8: why is no one talking about the pictures of Max and Alex walking around together?! Is Malex back together ?!

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