Forgotten

Chapter 55

Ariana gave me a towel & I wiped myself off. I sit back against the wall collecting myself back up. This felt as bad as the months I first lost my brother.

Faith's thoughts: "That stupid nightmare & my stupid driving!!"

If I only paid attention I wouldn't be in this situation & letting it all come back.

Ariana: "You okay!?" She looks over worried at me.

Faith: "Ya." I sigh looking down playing with my fingers.

Ariana: "Okay…mmmm…you scared the living shit out of me!! What the hell happened? We were sleeping & then you got up & started throwing up!? Like fuck my I'm literally shaking right now."

I didn't try to look up at her.

Ariana: "If this keeps up I'm going to have to start taking my medication again, you're making me worry Fae…I don't want to raise my voice or fight with you, just tell me what's wrong?"

Faith: "I…I…I…mmm…I…." I hesitate to tell her.

Ariana: "Fae, come you can trust me I've known you for my whole life tell me please."

I continued to look away from her, I had to tell her eventually. I didn't think or want it to be this soon. I take a deep breath.

Faith: "I had a nightmare & it….& it was about you, it scared me the shit out of me it felt so real, I saw you dead & it was my fucking fault if I didn't pay attention to that God dam car we wouldn't be here talking, it makes sick to my stomach that I was the one who almost put you in the hospital."

Ariana: "You're not going to…hey I'm still here nothing happened to me, it wasn't your fault."

Faith: "But What if it did? I can't go through that again, I can't…I'm sorry." I tell her, frustrated with tears.

4am in the morning & I'm crying on her shoulder letting all my tears out. She finally saw the vulnerable side of me I didn't want her to see.

(Ariana pov)

Home L.A.📍

She finally was able to go back to sleep but it hurt me watching her like that so broken. I cried right after she fell asleep.

Ariana's thoughts: "I just want to hold you tightly." Look over at her sleeping.

I sit next to her & pull out a handmade bracelet with crosses, music instruments & her initials on it.

Ariana's thoughts: "Why do you have to hurt yourself for this long." I sigh.

I put the bracelet on & go downstairs for coffee. Wiping my tears away, I shouldn't worry too much knowing my baby is safe in our room.

Myron & Toulouse walk out & walk towards me very happy to see me like always.

Ariana: "Hey babies, are the both of you excited to see me? I bet you are." I smile while petting them. "I bet you're hungry for an early breakfast aren't you two, huh."

I brought the bowl of food holding them with the only thought in my mind was about Faith.

Ariana: "Ya that's why I'm your momma because I take care & love you both to death…am I really a good momma if I can't take care of your other momma upstairs." They look confused looking at the bowl. "Neither of you understand shit that's okay, here eat up." Set the bowls down.

I feed them food & drink my coffee looking outside the window as the sun is rising. Faith would enjoy this early morning watching the sun rise.

Ariana's thoughts: "Tour life was supposed to bring us close but guess I was wrong." I sigh. "I'm going to be the best girlfriend ever, I don't give a shit I don't ever want to see her like that ever."