Don't let go- Tarlos

Exhausted

"Yeah, whatever is needed, let's do it"
"Ok we'll get everything"
"Thank you,oh god thank you doctor"
"Of course" he says getting closer "Now let's check you out"
He takes off the bandage and it hurts
"Oww"
The scar is big but my expertise tells me the infection is gone
"It looks good" the doctor says and presses around it.
It stings
I try not to look and I focus on breathing
"Tyler how do you feel to get up, just a little, I can bring you crutches"
Honestly I don't feel great but it's something I haven't done in like forever
"Is not to soon?"
"Maybe but we have to get you up, would you like to try it?"
"Yes" I answer insecure "but Can I see Carlos first"
"What do you think of walking to the wheelchair?"
"Yeah ok, ok"
"Great, I'll be back"

The doctor leaves
My dad gets closer to me
" I'm so proud of you" he says
I chuckle
"Really, you are the strongest person I know and I love you"
"I love you too dad, do you think I can do it?"
" I know that you'll get better anyway, maybe you can maybe you can't, I won't leave you ok?"
"Ok"
I'm nervous, my muscles are gone, I don't think I can do it, will my back be okay?

The doctor comes with the physical therapist and I don't have more time to think
They get the bed up and my dad organizes all the cables, they put me on a nasal cannula with oxygen, then they put my good leg out of the bed and my bad leg in a brace and out the bed too, really painful. My dad is there trying to calm me down, breathing with me, it's hard.
"Ok, now are you ready" the therapist asks me
"Mmhm"
"Ok, you grab him here" he says to the doctor "and TK remember not to put pressure on your right leg"
"Ok"
They grab me of my arms and back
"1, 2 , 3"
Slowly they bring me down and I touch the ground, it hurts I'm not gonna lie but it feels good, it gives me hope.
My leg gives up, but they bring me up again, my dad is telling encourage things
"How's the pain?" The doctor asks
"Goo-ood, manageable"
"Good, now let's try a step ok? We are going to be your support"
"Ok"
I grab their arms and really try it but I'm not able to.
"I— I can't"
"That's okay" the therapist says telling the nurse to bring the wheelchair
"We are going to spin a little bit" they do it and I can feel my leg giving up
"I'm gonna fall, I'm— I can't"
"You're not gonna fall, we have you remember?"
I nod, I'm really focus in not falling until the wheelchair is already in place
"Ok now seat"
I groan as I seat
"Great job"
I chuckle, it felt good

They organize everything, my dad puts me a blanket and organizes my IV and the oxygen tank
"Let's get you to Carlos" the doctor says
I'm scared, but relived because I can finally be by his side like he was with me.

He's connected to a lot of tubes, mouth, nose, hands...
He has a bandage in his head and some cables coming out of it.
Andrea is with him, she gets up and hugs me
"It's good to see you awake mijo" she says kissing my head, like Carlos does it
I smiled at her, not being able to put into words all the love and appreciation I have for her
My dad brings me to his bed and I grab his hand the one I have missed for so long, I put in in my cheek and tears are falling from my eyes, why to him?
"Hey baby..." I said sobbing
My dad and Andrea leave the room
I grab my left hand and put it in his hair, I'm still not strong enough , his black curls all messy.
"I've miss you"
I kiss his hand
"I'm here my love, I won't leave you ok? Not again"
The steady beeping of the monitors and my cries is all you can hear in the room while I massage his hand until my dad comes
"Hey TK"
"Mm"
"We have to go, times up"
"No" my voice so little
"Tk"
"No *sobs* no please"
"You promised"
"No, Carlos I won't leave you"
"Tk come here" he gets closer and hugs me
All my cries let me do is shake my head, I'm so so tired, my body hurts, exhausted, it's easier just to stay here with Carlos
"Come on son I know you're tired, you can come back tomorrow"
"Ok"
My dad steps away and I get close to Carlos
"I'll be back tomorrow, I love you my love"

The way back to the room is all blurry.
They get me on the bed, I'm crying from the pain and exhaustion, the doctor says I'm gonna be wearing the brace until my leg is finally healed so they leave it
They change me into the oxygen mask and give me some medication.
I'm almost asleep when my dad starts running his fingers in my hair
"I love you son"
It's the last thing I hear

Carlos pov

I can feel that something is wrong, I was coming in and out of the darkness but not being able to move just hear something so so far.
I'm in nowhere, in nothing, but then the nothingness is wet, really wet, I open my eyes and I'm under water, I swim up, I'm in a pool, TK's sitting in the corner of the pool, he's eating watermelon, it's relieving seeing him, I smiled, he looks so happy
"What baby?" He chuckles "You look disoriented"
"Hi" I say smiling and getting closer
"Hi" he says and then kisses me, smiling in the kiss.
It's like perfect
A nostalgic feeling taking power of me, suddenly I can feel someone pulling me under the water I look down but there's nothing but is still pulling me, I get away from TK and I'm going under
"Tk!"
But he's not there anymore
"Tk!?"
"Where are you!?"
But I'm under the water unable to get to surface.
And the nothingness consumes me again
The next time I'm aware of my surroundings I'm in some field, layed in the grass, I look to my side and Tk is there
"Hey"
"Hey TK"
He stays silent
"Are you okay?" I ask
"I'm dying Carlos"
"What? What do you mean?"
"Don't say that Carlos, it's not funny"
"I'm not joking, what's going on?"
"Aaassh, would you stop!"
"Baby..."
"Don't"
"What—"
Suddenly he starts to shake and his eyes took back, like a seizure
"Oh my god, TK, oh god" i try not to panic so I don't scare him
"It's okay baby, I'm here"
And then he stops, it's relieving at first but he's not breathing I check for pulse and nothing. I instantly start resuscitation, tears and sobs while I scream for help.
I don't know how much time I did it, no one came to help me and nothing happened with TK.
When I stop I'm out of breath so I hug him and cry in his chest
"Please don't leave, TK!, please please, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Someone grabs my shoulder i turn and is my mom.
"Ma?"
"Carlitos"
"Mama I need help, he—" I look to TK but he's not there anymore, the grass is gone, now I'm in some kind of mountains
"Tk— he—- he was here— he"
"Mijo, cálmate"she says cleaning my tears
"Ma i— i don't know what's going on?"
She hugs me and kisses my head
"You just need to rest mijo"
"I can't"
"Mi corazón look at me"
She's so beautiful, her curls grabbed with a clip "Things will get better"
And in an instant the whole floor collapses
Darkness again.
Voices far
Cold
Darkness
Until...

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