kit connor X male reader

"fans", panic attacks, kits first time

Tw: sh

Kit wakes up first, then he wakes me up like ten minutes later, Kit gets in the shower, and I get my phone and check my notifications. ugh, the same guy keeps asking about me and kit. People really don't mind their business. I block him from commenting on my pictures, and Kit comes out of the shower and walks into the room with a towel wrapped around his waist.
"You okay, love?" he asks
"Mhm," I say, standing up and going in the bathroom

I brush my teeth, and I look in the mirror,
"Kit," I call out
"Yeah," he says, walking in with just some shorts on, his hair still damp
"You gave me another love bite,"
"Not again," he sighs "sorry"
"It's fine," I say, hugging him

He kisses my cheek, and then he walks out. I shut the door, and I lock it, and I get in the shower. I wash myself, then I get out like twenty minutes later, I quickly dry myself off, and then I walk in our room, kit sitting on the bed scrolling through his phone.
"Kit, get ready. You're just going to walk around shirtless, " I say, throwing a t-shirt at him
"Well, I had to wait for you to finish showering so I can do my hair," he says, getting up

I roll my eyes, and he walks in the bathroom, I put my boxers on, then a pair of black basketball shorts, and I look for a t-shirt, I find a plain navy blue t-shirt. I pick it up, and I go to put it on when kit comes over and wraps his arms around my waist
"Hey handsome," he smirks, rubbing my chest.
"Hello," I smile, he quickly kisses my neck, "I need to get dressed now," I say

Kit smirks, then picks me up, and falls on the bed, still with his arms around me
"Ahhh kit," I laugh. "Let go,"
"Nope," he smiles
"Pleaseeee," I beg
Kit turns around, so he's on top of me
"What are you doing?" I ask, smiling
Kit looks into my eyes, smirking, and he starts tickling me
"Kit," I laugh, trying to push him off me.
"What did you want to say something?" he says, still tickling me

I can't stop laughing, then the door opens, and Kit and I look up and see joe standing there
"Uh, well, this is awkward, I tried calling you guys, but you wouldn't pick up."
"Um, guess we didn't notice," Kit says, getting up off me, putting on his grey t-shirt.

I get up, and I put on my shirt on, and I wrap my flannel around my waist, and we leave the room, we walk around the zoo and then we go on some of the last rides like the vampire and a few others.
"Guys, do you want to go to the pool?" joe asks
"Fuck yeah" I say

We go back up to our rooms and we get ready. Kit puts on his sunglasses, and I push him against the wall
"What?"
"You look like really hot like that," I say
"Do i"
"Mhm," I say, staring at his lips
I slam my lips against his, and we start making out, like crazy. Kit breaks away and goes to open the door, but I stop him
"What?"
"I want more," I beg
"Later, i promise," he says, smiling. "Come on,"

We walk out, and we meet joe by the pool. We sit at the edge with our feet in the water while talking. Me and joe jump in, and kit still sits there
"Kit, come in," I say
"In a minute," he says
I wrap my arms around his neck, and I smirk.
"What are you doing?" he laughs
I pull him in the water, and he looks at me
"Wowwww," he says

Kit hugs me, then pulls us under water, and joe laughing, I move my wet hair away from my eyes and kit smirks,
"You cunt" I laugh
Kit hits my shoulder
"There are kids here river seabrook"
I give kit a death stare and he trys hard not to laugh
"Let's see who can make the biggest splash" I say getting out

We all get out and joe goes first and his is quite good, then kit goes and really good and then I go canonballing in the water and I make a Hugh one, soaking kit and joe.
"Fucking hell" joe says "how"
"I used to love swimming when i was younger"
"Kit how is your boyfriend so good at everything"
He shrugs his shoulders then hugs me
"Guess I got lucky" he smiles kissing mt head

We chill at the pool for like two or three hours then we get out drying ourselves off and sitting on the lounge chairs, me with my headphones in blaring my music and kit flicking through his phone and joe doing what ever he's doing, we are such a weird trio. I look over at Kit, and his face drops from being the happy, annoying boyfriend he is to, frowning. He gets up and walks away, either his stuff and goes back to the resort.

I take my headphones out, and joe and I follow him. We walk in me and kits room, and he's nowhere. I go to open the bathroom, and it's locked. I knock on the door, but then there is a load of clattering.
"Kit?" I say,"Kit, open the door please, "
"I can't," he says quietly
"Kit, please,"
"I-i can't," he says louder, and it sounds like he's even crying
"Kit, have you been crying?" joe asks

We managed to unlock the door, and I opened it and kit sitting on the floor with blood on his arm, and him crying and  breathing heavily. I sit down next to him. And there is one of his razors next to him.
"Oh kit," I say, hugging him
Joe gets some tissue to clean his arm
"River, I'm so sorry." he says, quickly breathing more rapidly
"Kit, look at me. You're having a panic attack, " I say. "Breathe with me,"

Joe cleans his arm. While I help kit with his breathing, he eventually calms down
"What happened?" I ask
He picks up his phone and shows me. I unlock his phone, and I see that his dms are open with loads of people, sexualising him, calling him fake, saying he's queerbating, saying that he should kill himself and more horrible things. I go on all the dms, and I report them all, and I block them for him.

"Kit, how long has this been happening?" I ask
"Um, a few months, I think,"
"Oh kitkat," i say, hugging him
"But it's been getting worse, and it kept hurting, and I couldn't take it anymore, I'm so sorry,"
"Kit, you don't have to be sorry." joe says

We end up sitting there for a few hours just hugging really and talking. Joe goes back to his room to get ready to leave, and Kit and I get ready. I can tell Kit was feeling a bit better as he was his usual happy self. We get in the car, and we drive home. It's been fun these last few days. I'm just having fun and not caring about being surrounded by a huge city. Joe gets home, and Kit and I start driving home. I love him so much. People are absolutely disgusting. I hate all of them. It's probably why I have trust issues.