kit connor X male reader

the date

When I wake up, I realise that my kits date is today, and I basically flew out of my bed and ran to the kitchen to grab a coffee before I do anything if I don't have my coffee I can't function properly. I pull out my phone to text kit

'Hi kit, what time will we go? x'
'Let's say around half 11 that okay with you xxx'
'Yup, it's fine xx'

I put my phone down and smiled. It's nine now, so I have two hours to get ready. That's enough time. I hope. I finished my coffee, and I walked to the bathroom to get in the shower.

I wrap my towel around my waist and walk over to my bedroom, and I pick out some clothes. I remember telling Kit that it was smart casual, so I get a black shirt, a black blazer and some black ripped jeans out and out them on and I thought about adding chains for a while but I go against it. I sit at my desk and put a little bit of makeup on when I say a little, I literally mean just some guy liner. I put some product in my hair, and I sit down on the sofa and watch an episode of young Sheldon.

When the episode is finished, I check the time it's 11:15 omg 15 minutes until my first date. I walk back into my room and put on some colone when my phone buzzes. I checked to see, and Kit has texted me again,

'On my way to pick you up xx'
'Okay, are you going to tell me where we are going xx'
'Nope, you can find out yourself.'
'Wowwww'
'Okay, love you, see you in a bit xx'
'Love you too xxx'

I put my phone down and put on my old hightops, and I admire myself in the mirror. Then there is a knock at the door. I open the door and I see the kit there looking very handsome he's wearing some black chinos and a white shirt with a black blazer and a pair of vans and his hair is put back.
"Hi."
"Hi."
"You look really nice," Kit says
"You look really handsome." I blush

Kit walks in and gives me a peck on the lips
"These are you for you," he says, handing me some roses
"They are really nice, thank you,"
I put them in a vase with water in, and Kit and I walk down to his car.

I go to get in, but he stops me
"Ah ah, I'm taking you on a date, here." He opens the car and signals for me to get in, I sit in the car, and kit closes the door, and he gets in himself.
"Can I put in some music?" I ask
"Yeah, that's fine," Kit replies, still keeping his eyes on the road

I put on smells like teen spirit by nirvana,
Kit carries on driving, and I start getting impatient, so I decided to ask him again
"Kit, can you tell me where we are going?" I beg
"Fine, I'll tell you,"
"So where we going?"
"DeGusto, it's an Italian restaurant."
"I love Italian food."
"Well, that'd good then because if you didn't, I would have picked this for no reason," he laughs
"Kit."
"Yes."
"Do you want to meet my family?"
"Sure," he smiles

We arrive at the restaurant around 12:45. It looks really expensive I can't believe kit took me here it's absolutely beautiful, I mean what am I on about his networth is over 5 million pounds so of course he's able to afford this but for me? I'm so glad I went to the auditions for this winter or otherwise I wouldn't have met kit, and none of this would have happened.

We walk inside and it looks very casual but very fancy if you get what I mean, it looks really relaxed and we see alot of people in here it must be really popular for a date as a lot of people are kissing, holding hands and hugging. We sit down at a booth in the corner, and kit gives me a kiss on the lips, and I kiss him back. Kit grabs my hand, and I smile before accepting
"Thank you for taking me here,"
"It's fine,"

Kit hands me a menu, and I take it
"I can't take a menu." I laugh
"I'm taking you on a date. I think I'd have to give it to you," he laughs
We both look through the menu, discussing what to get, I keep looking up at kit and smiling, but then he catches me
"What?" He asks
"Sorry, I'm just really enjoying our time together. I never thought this would happen to me." I laugh sadly, and kit immediately pulls me into a hug
"Me too, Y/N"

Me and kit continue to talk but I think he's getting a bit pissed off I don't know why his voice has changed slightly instead of his calm voice its more of I don't know how to put it slightly angry
"Kit, why are you angry?"
"I'm no river,"
"You sound it,"
"Why aren't you looking at me when I talk?" I ask softly
"Sorry, I dont like eye contact, it makes me uncomfortable," I say, tearing up slightly
"Oh, river, I didn't know. I'm sorry,"  he hugs me again, and I almost immediately feel better
I feel bad for not tell kit things and I keep apologising fuck why do I do this all the time I can't socialise with anyone.

We order our food and when we get it we start eating when I mean we I just mean kit I find it start eating infront of people I don't know why I just do I think kit court up that i was just sitting there
"Whats the matter. Why aren't you eating"
"I don't know,"
"Is there anything I can do to help?"
"I don't know kit," I say, a little stressed out
"Do you want to share? Will that help?"
I nod

We finish eating and we just sit there talking for a bit waiting for the bill, kit keeps moving closer to me, how is he feeling what is he thinking what are his intentions what if you he doesn't like me what if you doing this to take the mick out of me. Kit notices that I'm panicking
"River, calm down,"
"I feel like I cant breath"
"I know. I know you're having a panic attack,"
Kit holds holds to me, and I eventually calm down. He keeps holding him. I don't want him to let go.

We end up getting the bill, and I've calmed down
"Do you want to split it?" I ask
"No, I'll pay for it," Kit says, taking out his wallet
"Okay, but I'll pay for it next time." I smile
"Oh, so there's going to be a next time," he laughs
"I hope so." I smile sadly
"I was only joking. Don't worry. I plan on dating your forever."
Kit pays the bill, and we get in kits car
"Do you want to go back to mine?" he asks
"Yeah," I say
And we drive to kits

We arrive back at kits, and we take off our shoes, and we walk in the living room, and we sit there cuddling, watching some tv. I look up at Kit, and he's focusing on the show, I move from the sofa and move to kits lap
"What are you doing?" he asks
"I want a kiss." I smirk
"Is that so?"

Our faces connect, and our bodies press together, breathing heavily as our lips are connected. I could taste our shared breath, one of my hands on his chest and the other on his face, his hands are on my back pulling my blazer, kit breaks away

"River, take this off." he says a little out of breath
"What? Kit, sorry, I'm not ready for that yet." I blush
Kit sits up and looks at me
"Ready for what?" he asks
"For you know, uh," I say, slightly embarrassed "sex." I whisper
"What, no, I wasn't thinking of that," he says, looking embarrassed as well now
"Oh, why did you want to take my blazer off?" I ask
"Because you felt really hot." He says
"Oh right," I say, taking it off

we just stay there like that in a very uncomfortable silence
"Sorry," I say
"You have nothing to be sorry about. I should have given you more context."
I laugh sadly
"I can understand if that made you uncomfortable and you wouldn't want to be with me."

"No, river, I want to date you, and we are going to end up having to have those conversations, but right now, I think both of us aren't ready."
"Kit, I need to tell you something."
"What?"
"I'm not perfect, I say stupid things sometimes, I laugh when I'm not supposed to, I have scars left by people who did me wrong, I'm a little crazy and that probably won't change, but I want you to know that love me or not I make one promise that if I love you I'll do it with a full heart"

"Oh river," he says, then hugs me tight. "Thank you for telling me. Do you want to stay over tonight?"
I nod

We have dinner, and we watch some tv, and I feel my eyes getting heavy,
"River, do you want to go to bed?" Kit asks
"Hm, what?"
"I asked if you wanted to go to bed."
"Oh yeah, I'm really tired,"

I had no energy, so Kit carries me up to his bedroom,
"Let me get you some clothes."
"Okay," I reply

Kit gets me a black t-shirt and some pyjama trousers
"Here, I'll get out so you can get changed,"

I get dressed in the clothes that kit got me, and kit comes back in with his pyjamas on,
"Will it be okay if we share a bed?" He asks
"Mhm."
"I need verbal verification."
"Yeah, it's fine."

We both get in bed, and I cuddle up to kits chest, and we both fall asleep