And That's How They Ruined Me

Repost bc it messed up

Liam's POV
I'm so angry. Angry at myself, I'm so angry at Harry for not wanting to help me. I just want to get out of here. I tried to stand up when I realized how uneasy I was, I hesitantly sat back down. I groaned in annoyance.

I screamed in my pillow and let out a frustrated cry. I have no idea what to do now. I-I'm scared, and angry, and sad at the same time. I just want to relax about this whole situation. I know I can't.

I probably won't be able to sleep either. I don't know what I'm going to do anymore. I just don't know how to handle all this. I don't understand why someone could hate me enough to try to kill me. I think I might die soon.

I have to do something or else I'll die. I know that. I know I won't be going to heaven when I do. I'm not exactly right with God right now. I don't know what I'm going to do but I know I have to do something.

I'm not ready to die just yet. I will be whenever I'm right with God. Right now, I know that I'm not. I want to be though. I start sobbing quietly into my pillow.

That's when I let it consume me, all the anger and frustration. I let it all take me over. I stopped crying immediately and looked in the mirror at myself from across the room. I had large dark circles and red exhausted eyes. I hated how weak I looked.

I slowly turned my head away from the mirror and stand up slowly. I relaxed my muscles and limped over to the shower. I took off my clothes and turned on the hot water, almost scolding hot. I felt instantly better. I scrub myself all over, really really hard.

I still felt gross so I washed myself for a good thirty minutes until I felt clean. I turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. I dried myself off with a towel and put on fresh clothes. I may be sick but I don't want to look sick. When I get enough rest, I'm going to hunt down this disgusting being and kill them myself.

.....I'm sorry about this awful excuse of a chapter. Its bad and short. I just needed to post something. Hope you guys have a nice dayyyyy! And I am sorry if you have already read this, my thingy messed up.