YN POV
I personally think that I am that type of person that would talk out anyone with depression or the thought of suicidel, but sadly I couldn't do the same for myself.
But I made it with his help. He changed me not for the good,but for the better. I now truly believe that broken chains are surely meant to be fixed. Unfortunately, before all this could happened I went through immense struggles along with many pains. For now, I'll be behind my bathrooms door doing something I'm not suppose to.
⚠️self harming + a little of suicidel thoughts (incoming )⚠️
Before hiding myself behind the bathrooms door. I opened my closet taking out a small box, then quickly went inside the restroom.
Entering it I stared into my reflection being seen on the mirror. Slowly I removed my hoodie, looking right at my right hands wrist wich was bandaged up, with some blood making its way out.
I undressed the bandaged while opening the box infront of me, I wanted to grab the first aid, but unfortunately things took a quick turn. My eyes landed on a pocket knife I tried really hard to not look and think about it, which didn't work a bit. Instead I started hearing voices in my head
Do it YN its gonna help you
It will make you feel better
Cut
Cut
Cut.
" Stop it, please leave" I muttered while tears poured out from my eyes like a river
Do it
Do it
Do it
" Hold on I'm doing it" I said slowly. Within minutes one cut turned into two making it four doubling it to 8. Too soon, I had new cuts some were deep, while others were only minor.
" Why, just why for how long will I be doing this. For how long will I keep this a secret from my brothers" I thought to myself. Yes, brothers not one but two who both are elder than me.
Deeply sighing a took antiseptic along with a few cotton pads, and began cleaning the newly made scars.
"The old ones are healing well " I thought to myself, this was interrupted by a shout coming from down.
" YNNN!! come downstairs please" I heard my eldest brother Jungkook yell
" I'm coming" I yelled back. I quickly finished cleaning up everything, leaving no trace of what I had done.
Making my way down I saw my brothers sitting on the sofa most probably waiting for me.
" You called me?" I asked them
" Ah yes , YN listen as you know with your last psychologist things didn't end well" My second elder brother Soobin spoke.
" It never ends well, plus I don't need it'' I said coldly
'" Belive it or not, you do you really do " Jungkook said
'" I don't oppa, it unnecessary, tell him Soobin oppa" I said. He didn't bother to reply, but instead he said
" YN please go and get ready, we're going end it's the end of discussion" I glared at them for a whole 5 minutes, until I decided not to say this left me absolutely no choice I went back to my room to get changed
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