Caroline Wales

IV - Papa will know

Caroline
2002
Life if going good, except a little lonely, William in St. Andrews and Harry at Eton. I've come to learn how to entertain myself in the grounds of Highgrove, a place I called hell at 13. My spare time has been limited, studies are harsh and stressful, wich takes most of my time, but I study my butt off the whole week so I can relax on the weekend, and the spare time I get on the weekend I enjoy, either riding across the countryside or exploring the house, wich I have lived in for the past 4 years and didn't even know everything yet, depressing I know.
This weekend, besides being a cold February weekend, I was kinda lonely. Pa went on a trip, and Camilla never stays without Pa there, so basically I was home alone, if you exclude the staff.
If I had told either one of my brothers my situation, at least one of them would find a way of getting here and making me company, but I didn't tell them so they'll never know. Pa left me alone with the intention I'd bring a friend. You would have probably imagined that too, I'd throw a party, steal beer, bring a friend, whom are almost nonexistent , or even bring a boy over, but no, I stayed alone.

You must've been wondering, what has she got on her mind? She's already lonely, staying alone by choice is idiotic. But one thing you must know about me is that I enjoy solitude, being alone with my thoughts, my piano, my books, those were the biggest happiness of my life, after Will and Harry.
This weekend in particular I decided to walk around the house nonstop, exploring and discovering every door, every book, every paper, every photograph, every history within these walls. The British weather helped me with that, raining all day long wouldn't help be gallop or anything else.

During Sunday night I opened the only door I hadn't yet, my father's bedroom, I found it could be incredibly interesting. I trusted my father and loved him, yes there are things he did I'll never forgive, but he wants to love us and be a father, and I need a parent, and I only have him. William doesn't like Pa that much, but he respects him, eventually he'll be able to forgive him. Harry in the other hand, despises Papa to the very end of his soul, I pity him, Harry gathered anger after mummy's death, and he declared to himself to hate each and every thing on his life. I worry he'll cave his own tumb.

Pa's room had many photographs and book's, paperwork and letters from well-wishers. After a couple of hours in there I came across a paper, of the speech he gave when crowned Prince of Wales, I had never heard it and was extremely curious, but it was written in Welsh, so I couldn't understand. I could ask someone for a translation, but I'd fancy some time with my father, so I'll ask him tomorrow, or next week. All I know is that he is the one who's going to tell me what's in that paper.

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Guess who came just watched The Crown s3e6 and got inspired. I'll post another chapter on Charles and Callie later, thank you for your support.
Love, Lilli