I have always loved her, the pull of her to me has been never-ending. I could never get enough of her, she was my first love. When i was five i met her for the first time she surrounded me with salt and that sweet lick of summer.
When i was 7 we came again to enjoy her beauty i liked how she pulled me into her even when her waves were aggression you could still feel that silent harmony. When the waves got big leaving me small in there shadow i would seek her below, below this anger was silence that would wrap you in a pillow and twirl you around she was everything you could ever want, her beauty fucking angelic.
"Emmie, were leaving in five!" mom called,
"Im almost ready!" I yelled back with satisfaction.
Staring at the mirror in-front of me was a girl i don't think i know. She had a look to her a sweet look but this wasn't encompassed by her height, she stood just two inches from six foot with short brown hair streaks of gold from the summer sun. Tanned skin encompassed her she never really thought of herself as pretty until this year she wasn't really ever noticed by any boys well ones worth mentioning anyways. This girl in the mirror Emmie had never had a boyfriend for so many years boys thought her too "big" but now she was going into high school. Emmie didn't like feeling big she didn't like the way even with her stomach flat she was still too big because even though she was made fun of for her tall stature she was reticuled for being, "built like a little boy"
I kept looking at her, me, I don't like the way I look. It keeps me up at night i have cried and cried. Within my last breakdown i cut my long hair short i like it i think it suits me, but the boys at school don't they ask me why in a way like i cut theres instead of mine, i think this is because boys aren't used to things being out of there control and i refuse to be chained down.
"Come on Emmie were leaving!" mom calls again this time with much more annoyance.
"Coming! Coming!" I screech,
We all pile into the car Jimmy, Sarah, Lucy, Mom, and Dad. Lastly me. Jimmy my oldest and only brother is 17 he's been dating this girl Lucy for five years though, I want to find my Lucy someday. Lucy has long brown hair straight as a pin and in contrast to my brother shes very petite I've always envied the way she looks. With her freckles dotting her body and deep olive skin, shes beautiful. My brother is very tall with short red hair and really big feet. Sarah is my sister, shes the middle child at 16 then my mom and dad are both 43. Sarah is who I've always wanted to be shes short with an hourglass i just know boys are fawning over her, and shes really really smart witch is kind of intimidating for me.
I am squished in the back between Jimmy and Sarah. The drive is about ten minutes but I can already feel the sticky warmth of the outside air.
"Scoutch over Em Jimmy has so much more room" says Sarah, I slide ever so slightly into Jimmy who looks at me like a little bug he wants to squish.
Jimmy's shoulder is jostling my head and Sarahs leg is stuck to mine. Eventually we arrive the sound of the ocean everywhere, thats when it happens I just look at her she is mesmerizing. We run the sand kicking up at out heals throwing down our bags, landing in a heap we jump in, the icy water doesn't deter us from emerging into the salty sea.
Soon enough the sun begins to rest and the waves rise, we get out of the water and just observe her beauty from the warm sand. Dolphins surf the waves enjoying the dusk of our world settling I feel at peace here.
