Alpha's Fallen Angel

Chapter 57-Amara

I at least got rid of my morning breath, that's all I can ask for these days. Aylin stays quiet as I walk over to my wardrobe and pull on a shirt. I groan when it feels too tight and I throw it to the corner

"Motherfucker, I haven't been eating, I know training will make me gain muscle but why in the bloody fuck don't my shirts fit!" I yell in frustration

"Artemis' tits, Amara, you have impeccable timing" Aylin curses, I look at her confused

"What is Hades' Hell are you talking about?"

"Shut the fuck up and listen. How many heartbeats in this room do you hear?" she yells

My mind goes blank, utterly blank, complete silence as I take in what she means. No.

No.

No.

No.

Not now. Not this month, not this year. No.

"LISTEN!" Aylin yells when I realize I'm hyperventilating.

I know what I'll hear, but I listen anyway. In the silence, there's my heartbeat, her heartbeat...and a third, faster heartbeat.

"Goddess, no!" I yell. I clutch my stomach, and I think back. No, we never used protection. Idiots, we were bloody idiots. This was the worst possible time to be pregnant, my child would be born in the middle of a war.

"You need to see a doctor. We have no idea how long you will carry for. When did your symptoms start?" Aylin says, pacing around the room

Fuck, when did they start?

'You couldn't brush your teeth the day of the meeting with everyone else' Tamisra says

'You couldn't have clued me in?!' I yell back at her, I'm in a panic. How could I let a child be born into this chaos?

'I wasn't positive! This could have easily been anxiety like you said.' she says back

"FUCK" I yell, moving my hands from my stomach to my head.

Aylin is in front of me in an instant, grabbing my shoulders and stopping me from falling to my knees.

"Breathe Amara '' she says, it's only then that I realize I was holding my breath. "I'm...I'm going to go grab dad, he'll know what to do. Please just stay here. It'll be okay" she says.

"No. Dont, don't leave me" I sputter

"This is out of my element, I'll come back, but I'm bringing dad with me. I'm only portaling, this will take not more than a minute" she says and disappears.

I break down as soon as she's gone. I'm going to have a baby in the middle of a war, I could be captured pregnant. Maybe it's better if I just go to the underworld, nothing can get me there. But then, I'd be leaving everyone to deal with my mess in my wake. How is that fair to them? But what do I care more about, other people fighting in a war I created, or my child who didn't ask for any of this.

I don't answer my question, I already know the answer. But I won't leave everyone to fight while I go hide, that's not an option. I'll figure something out, if nothing else I'll somehow manage to stay on the side and use my magic from there during battle. Maybe in a tree. I laugh at that, the irony. Always a tree. I take another breath and listen again

'Badumbadumdadumbadum' such a sweet sound, but so menacing at the same time

I let it calm me, it sounds like horse hooves hitting the ground. I listen for a couple more seconds, my arms hugging my belly. No, I will not let anything happen to this little bean. We will figure something out.