The missing girl (Neji x reader)

34- burnt out

AN : This chapter is mostly based on mental illness and is pretty depressing 

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The next day I want to a hot spring to relax, too much has happened to me since I moved here. I'm tired, very tired

sometimes I felt like giving up and just wanted to set free, y'know?

I sat in the hot water and breathed in, and out.. I wanted to be at peace for once, I wanted to feel calm and collected for once. 

I closed my eyes and stayed silent, the only thing I could hear was my breathing and the water waving around me

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After I went home and just stayed in my room, and just.. Sat there, on the corner of my bed. Thinking, how tired I was, and just wanted to take a deep sleep silently. I guess it's one of those days where you just cry for no reason I thought as the flows of my tears fastened 

my knees up to my chest, my arms around my legs, and my chin on my knee. 

I whimpered and cried until I couldn't breathe. I cried until my vision turned blurry from the tears flowing down my eyes.

And eventually cried myself to sleep.

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I woke up not knowing what time it was, I looked out the window and the sky was turning dark blue, I sighed as I looked at the clock 6:00 pm , I was asleep for 3 hours I thought as I lied back down and covered myself with my blanket

a few moments later I decided to get up and walk to the kitchen, I washed my face with cold water and put my jacket and shoes on

I went out then went on a walk,

"Did you eat yet?" someone said, making me jump. I look at my left to see Neji, "Oh, I didn't see you there Neji.. And no, I haven't" I said looking at him, and he looked at me with a rather skeptical look on his face

"What's wrong?" He asked tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear "Nothing's wrong, I'm fine" I answered his question. "Let's go to my house, I'll make you something to eat" Neji said taking my hand gently and we walked to his house

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I didn't speak while we walked to his house, I just rather stayed silent. which was unusual. Moments later we arrived at his house and I took my shoes off and sat down on a chair 

"You're acting strange" Neji broke the silence "Is something bothering you?" He asked looking at me "No.." I answered "Then what's wrong?" He said with a gentle tone "I don't know, I just feel very sad, and gloomy today"

I felt neji gaze at me with concerned eyes, "I'll make you cold coco to make you feel better, okay?" Neji offered and I nodded.

I loved any cold beverage, even if it was supposed to be a hot beverage. I always preferred every drink I drank to be cold

I kept a numb look on my face and sat down on his couch, I felt more.. Drained, than tired

Burnt out, kind of

Everything that was happening was tiring, and draining

I sighed and looked around the room, trying to wake myself up even though I already was. I was trying to get out of this burnt out body of mine,

Neji handed me a mug with coco in it paired a long with some ice, he sat down next to me and stroked my hair for a bit, while I took few sips of the drink.

My eyelids were getting heavy and put the cup down, and rested my head on neji's shoulder.

"Are you sure you're only feeling, gloomy? And not actually sick? " Neji asked with a concerned look on his face as well as the tone of his voice

He then put his palm on my forehead, then my neck " what are you doing? " I asked with a skeptical look on my face "just checking if your heating up " he answered "I'm gonna go get a thermometer. You can go to my room and lie down" he added

"You're being dramatic, Neji " I argued looking at him with a smirk and followed with a slight chuckle

Neji rolled his eyes and spoke, " just do what I told you, and stop arguing" he rolled his eyes again, as he looked through one of the kitchen drawers

I scoffed and went to his room and lied down.

My eyelids became heavier by the minute, and fell asleep.

A few moments later I felt someone's presence enter the bedroom

After my temperature was checked I heard neji speak "if you're not sick.. Then what's wrong?"

I gripped onto his shirt "what's wrong?" He asked and I shrugged my shoulders

I felt him put a blanket on my body and stroked my hair "rest for a bit, you'll feel better when you wake up"

Lips suddenly pecked my forehead and continued to stroke my hair

What are we? I thought to myself and soon fell asleep

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