If Only (Kakashi X Oc) - Part 1

Resolve

He grinned and said proudly; "Of course he is! He is my son after all. I'm very proud of him; Youngest Chunnin of his badge uh~"

I left him alone and went to the garden to calm down. I kept spreading my chakra around the house to be sure he was still there.

30 minutes later - inside the house

"Here's the letter. Also give him this summoning scroll along with this 2nd letter on his 10th birthday."

"Ok." I sealed the letters and scroll inside my storage.

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"Well, it's late you should go home for now."

He turned around and was walking towards the door. I ran towards him and back-hug him. I really looked like a child next to him.

"I'm really glad I got to know you, Otou-san" I said crying. I was shocked by what I said. I guess a part of me saw him as a father figure without me noticing. I did spend a lot of time here once I became friends with Kakashi.

Sakumo POV

This is harder than I thought.... Otou-san uh...

I turned around and hug her as well. "I'm also glad to have met you as well, Musume(daughter). Maybe if it was under different circumstances we could have been a big happy family with small kakashis and Soras running around."

She froze a bit when I said that; "Don't be surprised I knew you were a girl; I visited the orphanage once and the director told me about you. I also noticed the way you look at Kakashi sometimes. Don't worry though I doubt anybody else noticed, we just spent too much time together."

I stayed there hugging her while She cried. Am I really making the right decision...? After 10 minutes she stopped crying and looked up at me. In that moment it suddenly hit me. She was but a child; younger than Kakashi. A child alone, with no real family to rely on.

I crouched down to her eye level and wiped away the tears from her cheeks; "I really liked our spars and pranks on kakashi. Also, don't let the Anbus turn you cold. I noticed the chakra from the tattoo. I was also an anbu so I recognize it. I don't know why you chose to become an Anbu and I won't question you. I know you're intelligent and strong enough to take care of yourself but if you feel it's becoming too much, get out! There's no reason to destroy your soul for that."

"I hope you get to experience the many joys of life. Don't forget to keep Kakashi's ego in check!" She chuckled a bit at that.

"And try to confess to Kakashi when's the time is right. Don't wait too long~ I'm sure he'll be breaking hearts once he's older! I'll be watching over you and my grandkids" She blushed a bit but didn't answer.

"Ok, go now." I ruffled her hair and watched her go away. I really hope you can keep smiling Sora. This shinobi world has too much hatred in it.

I closed the door and looked around the house, one last time. There were kakashi's picture as a baby and growing up on the wall. He really looked like his mom. Oh how I miss her. I hope she won't be too angry that I left kakashi alone too soon. But... He's in good hands.

I sat down in my room looking at a picture of the 3 of us with my sword by my side. "I love you Kakashi. Stay happy forever! And you need to grow old before joining me!"

One last look, I put down the picture and pierced myself. "Dammit this hurt more than I had thought." I coughed some blood and tried to remove the sword but I didn't have enough strength. I was loosing blood. Fast.

Sora POV

I appeared by Sakumo-san's side. I never left; I had merely concealed my chakra and watched everything from the shadows. I rest Sakumo-san's body in my lap.

"I'll remove the sword now." He nodded and held back a scream.

"I told you to go home Sora-chan. You never listen, do you."

"Please don't talk, you will just hurt yourself even more." The blood, it was pouring out too quickly. He reached his hand to my face and wiped a tear away.

"Don't cry Sora-chan, it was just my fate."

I held his hand. "Please No! You know I can still save you! Just say the word!" It was true, there was a pill from the shop that could heal him.

"Please Sakumo-san. Say it please." I looked into his eyes but they just looked relieved. Happy even.

"I'm so.. rry... "

"Ple.. ase... ta.. ke.. ca.. re... Ka.. ka.. shi.... "

"Yes, yes I will. You may rest in peace. Don't worry."

He turned to look at the picture on his bedside table before closing his eyes for the last time.

Kakashi POV

I woke up startled. I thought I heard my dad's voice beside me saying he loves me. I looked around and everybody was still asleep. I stared at the full moon which for some reason appeared to be shinning brighter tonight.

"I'm having a bad feeling."