Frozen smile || Minsung

38.

"Okay, tell me if you are. And.. I think we should talk. But first, I will get this done first.." - Jisung motioned downwards with his chin, unintentionally making Minho feel guilty.

"Sh-should I help?"

"You don't have to, if you don't want to." - he told him, but Minho insisted.

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"Your mouth feels heavenly, Jagiya.." - Jisung let out a satisfied sigh as he fell back into the duvet. When Minho helped him, it never took long for Jisung to reach his high.

"Let's eat first, it would be weird to talk about things after this.." - he chuckled, while finding his boyfriend's hand, locking them together and pressing his lips to Minho's hand.

Mrs Han was as welcoming as always, making Minho feel like he had always lived with them. She cooked scrambled eggs with bacon, and the two boys happily dug in the freshly prepared food.

Minho finally felt at home, like he had a family. He was surrounded by loving people, helping him in ways they couldn't even guess. At first, he didn't even realise he was smiling. Smiling at Jisung and his mother laughing, the two who helped him the most. Jisung caught him looking at them, so he turned to Minho.

"You ready to go up, baby?"

The smile on his face quickly turned back to a line.

No.

He didn't want to talk about that right now, yet he knew he owed Jisung that much. After taking him in, treating him, loving him. He even sucked Wonshik off.. he didn't deserve Jisung. Minho mentally laughed at how easily his feelings and thoughts could alter.

"Yeah.." - his smile that came so naturally just a few seconds ago, now seemed difficult to keep on, but he forced the smile back. He was used to faking smiling anyways, so why did it feel wrong and difficult now? He swallowed hard, before thanking Ms Han for the food, and then going upstairs after Jisung.

"Come sit down, and get comfortable."

Minho nodded and went closer.

"I want to tell you something first." - Jisung started, taking a deep breath. He scooted towards Minho, searching for his eyes - "yesterday.. I didn't mean any of that, and I'm so fucking sorry.. I was so so so fucking dumb for saying that to you. You didn't deserve it one bit, and- I was jealous... so jealous, that I- ah this is embarrassing..."

"Jealous?"

"Yeah.." - Jisung scratched his neck.

"Of who?"

"Well- Changbin.."

"Changbin?" - Minho had an unreadable expression on his face.

"Yeah- I know it sounds dumb! But- But you were always hanging out with him, you- you almost couldn't celebrate our anniversary because of him! And he always needed your help and I- I guess I just wanted you all to myself.."

"But Jisungie, he likes Felix.. he wanted to plan their date.."

"He could've asked me! I'm his best friend, he didn't have to always take you away from me!" - Minho flinched from the sudden rise of voice, Jisung muttering a small sorry after seeing his reaction.

"We thought you would've told him on accident.. sorry.."

Jisung slumped his shoulders, and his pouty face made Minho giggle. Minho reached forward, caressing his cheek, making Jisung smile at the affection he was receiving.

"There's the Jisungie I wanna see." - Minho mumbled, now smiling as well at the cute sight of Jisung.

"So, back to the topic.." - Jisung cleared his throat to clear his mind, not wanting to redden and get carried into another direction - "Please don't think what I said back there is true... I was just mad and didn't think through what I was saying, please forgive me.."

"I was never mad at you.. I- I still think I don't deserve you. I'm sorry for everything.. I didn't want it I swear!" - he could feel his heart rate quicken.

"Love, take a deep breath, you deserve me, and I deserve you okay? We are both okay with each other." - He took Minho in his hands, embracing him in a warm hug. He could feel Minho's tears soak through his hoodie, but he didn't mind - "Take your time, baby"

"C-can you.. n-not call me that? F-for now.." - he hiccuped, hearing the word baby only brought him back painful memories of Wonshik, no matter how hard he tried to fight off the memories.

"Of course, I'm sorry.." - Jisung kissed his head, just letting Minho cry as much as he wanted.

A few minutes later, Minho sat back up, wiping away the remnants of his tears with his sweater paws.

"Okay.. where should I start?"

"How long has this been going on?"

"Oh.." - Minho let out a shaky breath - "Since my second year maybe? It was not always this.. serious.. I guess it got worse over the years..."

He glanced up, and when he saw Jisung's concerned expression, he continued.

"I guess I should start with how we got to know each other.."

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A/N 

this is kind of like a filler chapter but the next chapter will be better! I will post it soon :)

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