For a moment my body felt numb, my head stop hurting, my body stop shivering, feels like my heart stop beating, this was all I wanted... but suddenly the pain, physical pain that I just gifted myself hit and I almost screamed in fact i tried to cover my mouth while screaming.
I watched more blood oozing out, this time it was different, it was so much, enough to satisfy me, I was liking it way too much. Slowly and gradually my mind started to get shift on the blood, it was calming me down in an odd way, my breathing became normal almost, and no more tears were coming out from my eyes, I stopped crying a long ago now, I just sat on the floor and stare at the blood dripping down on the floor.
Soon I heard a loud thud, I look into the room and it was Jimin, he immediately rushed towards me and with wide eyes look at all the blood painted on the floor. He immediately grabbed the towel hanging beside him and kneeled in front of me, while worriedly looking over me he cleaned the blood leaking on my skin. He pulled out the first aid kept in front of us in the open cabinet, I don't have any energy to speak right now so I just watch him dressing up my wound, he was crying too, I chuckled sadly and asked,
"Why are you crying, idiot?"
He didn't answer instead pulled me into his embrace, I immediately clutched his blazer and snuggled into his embrace, that comforting warmth radiating from him and the way his hands were caressing my back in a protective manner made me feel like I don't deserve any of these, I don't, it's all because of me, I make all the people around me worry, I'm at fault, in fact, Eun-woo is suffering because me, because I made him and mom too if was never born then she might have a perfect family for herself, and Taehyung too, I'm getting in between him and his girlfriend... I look up at Jimin, he cupped my face and asked,
"What's hurting you Ynah~?"
"I...I'm...hurting myself"
I answered almost inaudibly, he hold me tighter and shook his head, I look into his eyes and suddenly figure out what I actually want, I wrapped my arms around his neck as my body start to shiver and more and more tears start to flow out of my eyes, I want it and I asked for it,
"I... w-want to die Ji...min, p-please help m-me"
He shook his head in denial while tears never stop flowing out from his eyes, he run his fingers through my hair and spoke,
"Take a deep breath YN"
I wailed and shook my head, I sobbed hard and spoke,
"It's hurting Jiminah~"
"Please Ynah~"
He pleaded, I still shook my head in denial, he exhaled heavily and pulled his bag kept on his side which I noticed just now. He pull out a syringe and a tiny bottle of a known sedative, he filled up the syringe and rolled up my sleeves, and was about to inject something but I hold his hand tightly stopping him to do so, he worriedly looks over me, I smiled weakly and said,
"Just once Jiminah~ everything will get better"
"Just let me die for once"
"Stop saying rubbish Yn, let me inject it"
"I don't want to..."
I almost whispered he was crying hard by now, I wipe off his tears and smiled weakly, he gripped me tightly and I again asked,
"Why?"
"Please Ynah~ for Eunwoo"
Hearing my baby's name I loosened my grip on his hand and without wasting another second, he injected the drug into my arm and my body went numb, there was no sign of pain at all. I look over his face, he was still crying and caressing my hair, I snuggled into his embrace and before getting unconscious I mumbled,
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THE UNREQUITED LOVE
Fanfiction"He's coming back today" I shockingly looked up at the elder and took a deep breath trying to calm myself, no this can't happen, I have to find another way soon He pecked my forehead almost lovingly and started moving slowly initially, I whimpered a...
