"Nepenthe " (Tk) ( DisContiuned)

8

"Jungkookie"

I heard a faint soft voice among the harsh ones which were moving around my head am I dreaming?if I am I don't want to wake up from it.....I rised my head my eyes still closed not wanting the dream to end ...

" Open those beautiful eyes"........ another soft voice That warm pressure I felt on my forehead moved down to my face spreading across my cheeks.....I leaned in liking the warm feeling against my cold cheeks.....

"Open your eyes for me kook"......my eyelids flattered open.... finding the pair of eyes filled with worry....they were like ocean so deep yet so beautiful.....

"Are you alright?"........I heard that voice again...even softer now....but the worrness was still present there making my heart melt.....

I blinked my eyes slowly... clearing my vision making the stored tears to come out but were soon wiped away.....

"Your ok?".......he asked again this time with a small comforting smlie..I gave him a small nod rubbing my sore eyes......

" Ok then let's get going".......he says grabbing my arm gently but I didn't move I don't want to go I fear if I see appa again I had lose myself once again.....

" What's Wrong jungkookie"......I shook my head slightly fighting with the crys which were building up.....

I don't want to do this

I don't want to cry

I don't want to

I am not weak

I heard him exhale...warm hands once again making there way to my cold cheeks.. his thumb tracing my cheek bones....

" I am here".........as those soothing words left his mouth....I found myself lost in them for a moment.....

he pulled me towards the door and started walking downstairs...I took a deep breath following him.......

We stopped at the closed door of the study....he gave me a encouraging smlie..patting my shoulder.....

My hands fisted I banged my fists on the door gently (knocking) a small " come in" was heard after that.....

" Appa"......I whispered...Appa looked at me closing his eyes he exhaled..... getting up and walking towards me......

He hugged me

" I am sorry my jungkookie"........he let out his shaky voice.....I can feel the faint shaking of his.......

" It's ok"........ hugging him back i comforted...... after all he's my father the person who make me......

He held me up,

So I could touch the stars.

When they lost their shine,

He wiped off the stardust,

Sat me on the moon.

He uncurled my wings,

He Helped me fly.

He's my father my family and another me.......

" I love you appa"........I whispered the statement..a throaty chuckled left Appa's mouth making his chest vibrate........

Cough cough  

I turned around only to spot Mr Kim standing at the door way.... leaning against the door frame......

" It's very good to see that you are on good terms now I shall take my leave now"......Appa nodded and hugged Mr Kim

"Taehyung tell your parents to pay a visit her soon I don't have much time"

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Love is a beautiful kind of fear
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The father part made me emotional although I have my both parents I feel so bad for the people who don't have them ...this thing bothers me alot...not only that but the parents who don't have there children that's also very sad...

moon bin rest on peace
I felt so bad even though I don't follow them still no one feels good after hearing that a good person died
And is no one in this world to spread happiness....

 

Byeie