"Nepenthe " (Tk) ( DisContiuned)

2(edited)

The day dawned crisp and clear as the light wind pour through the bedrooms open window fanning on my face I rubbed my bleary eyes slowly opening them sitting up a little.turning my phone I found some boring news about idols...........

" Breaking news the young actor mi cha was cheated on by her boyfriend"

I sigh I don't understand why do people cheat when they are in a relationship and in love anyways.............

Getting up I quickly frashed up dressing in a plain white shirt and ripped jeans sure a good day I decided to spend my day with Noah today because I too angry on him yesterday soo let's get going ..........

Time skip

I took a deep breath before getting out of the car I am nervous don't know why I feel like something is wrong what if he is angry on me?.......

Taking heavy steps towards the front door I banged on it . He isn't opening he must be asleep o remember I have the spare key.......

I opened the door twisting the doorknob I met with silence and a dark house ' Noah".........I called softly making my way towards the bedroom the moment I stepped inside the room my eyes wide open filling up with tears no this can't be.......

Noah was asleep with a girl there clothes all scattered on the floor....

I breathe heavyly tears streaming down my face now no! no! no! As I saw Noah wake up I ran from there I don't know where but I ran my head blank eyes blured with tears it hurts safe me I can't by the time I clamed down a bit it was afternoon . driving myself back home....

I stepped inside I feel soo empty useless shit "jungkookie where were you I was so worried love"........ Mom says walking towards me I looked at her with a blank expression and tilled my head slightly tears stained on my face ....

" Mom I am ready for the marriage you guys decided".....I said my chest tighted voice low and throat dry I ran to my room locking the door loud sobs escape from my mouth sliding against the door.....

No no no this can't be

He can't do that

He loved me

I-i am useless he gave up

I am not perfect he

Why just why

He- i-i

I pulled my hair in frustration...................." "shut up! ".......I screamed trying to shut out constant nagging in my head.The darkness of my room wasn't helping. Someone help he can't I can't do this anymore. I try to hold back my tears but I just can't a steady stream flowing down my face.having drawn up my knees to my chest,I bury my face in my knees, trying to hold back hitched.....

I layed down on the cold floor my body trembling eyes puffy sniffing lightly thinking everything all over again my life I should die no can't die eomma will cry.....

Then what? What should I do? Married I will get married yes yes I will do that yes yes

Sometimes the people you love the most. are the ones causing you pain the most