"Why Not Me?" Beverly Marsh x Reader

☆Part 13☆

I sit at my desk and start writing in my diary some pages for Richie,Beverly and Bill. i write on my hand under my pillow as thats where im putting my diary

I go to my bathroom and grab a knife that i had there for protection in my drawers i lay down on my bed and and stab the knife into me as deep as i can as i wince from the pain before everything turns to black

Beverlys POV

I stop in my tracks after storming form the Denbroughs house, shit maybe i shouldnt have sajd that i was angry i didnt mean any of it i did like Y/N But liked Bill aswell, i shoukd gi back and check on Y/N. I knock on the denbroughs door and let myself in "Oh hey Bev didnt excpect you hear" I hear Sharon say from the kitchen " Hello Ms Denbrough" i qhickly say before running up the stairs "Look Y/N im so sor-" i stoo mid sentence when i realise what im looking at. Shit "BILL, MS DENBROUGH PLEASE COME TO Y/NS ROOM" i scream in terror as i hear them coming in " No, no no no my poor baby" i hear Sharon say as she runs  over to Y/N tears pouring from her eyes
"Guys get into my car we have to bring her to the hospital again." i watch as sharon  looks at y/n and sees something on hr hand and takes a diary form under her pillow she gives it to me as she pics uo Y/N and we get to the car

When were at the hospital i call Richie to come aswell, sicne id dint know what happened but he would definatley come still.

"No No No Y/N im so fucking sorry, the last thing i said to you was fuck you i mever got to say a goodbye or an I Love You"  i hear Richies shakey voice

"Guys Y/N left a diary i assume theres stuff she wanted to say" Sharon tells us while crying and opening the book "Ill go to the recent pages since she hasnt wrote here in a while basically since she was 8" she skims through the pages untill one says a date from the year were in " theres a page where shes talkign about you, Beverly you can read it here. " i grab the book from ehr hands and start reading