Living With Depression

So Things Have Happened

I broke up with my well ex boyfriend now. It was really hard to do. My ex that I'm in love with has a girlfriend now. I've been crying about that every night. I had a dream last night, and I really wish it would come true. It was about me and the ex I love. I was sitting alone and he came over to me and he asked if I still had feelings for him. I told him I loved him and he said he loved me too. Then we started dating. Then I woke up. I finally had a happy ending... but it had to be in a dream. I wish I could have my happy ending in real life. And now so I don't have to hurt anymore. My dad's still drinking. I cleaned a whole trash bag full of cans out of the house and from the backyard yesterday. That wasn't easy. I'm really feeling alone right now because no one talkes to me rarely anymore except for my best friends. But they only know a little about all of this. Sometimes I wish this was all over... well I guess that's it... for now...