Shadow Of The Past | ✔️

36| "I love you"



I open my own door and step out the car. I make no eye contact or dare look at him.

I walked inside the house first and left it open and when I heard the door close, letting me know hes inside, I turned around and looked at him.

"What was that, Ace?" I asked.

He said nothing but just looked at me with nothimg but anger dancing around him and dancing in his eyes.

I stood waiting for an answer until he sighed. And what came out of his mouth shocked me to the core.

"Fuck Naomi, I did it because I love you and I couldnt handle seeing another man touch you. I could'nt sit and just watch him touch you."

I stare at him and as he says the I love you, my body clenches.

"I've loved you ever since I laid my eye on you when we were sixteen. I never stopped loving you. Ever. Even when I left you into wich I had no choice. Naomi I don't even think you realize how much I love you and without you I am a messed up piece of shit. The way I love you so damn fucking much, when I was gone I never dared look at another women or touch one, because I loved you that mych. I never loved anyone else like I've loved you and never wanted anyone but you. If that women wasn't you I didnt want her." He finished.

I look in his eyes and I know and I feel he meant every word that came out of his mouth.

I was silent.

My heart.

It is beating faster and faster with every second.

My hands slightly shaking.

I couldnt breathe properly.

My mouth is dry.

Tears collecting in my eyes.

I didnt know what to do. I didn't know what to say. How to even react.

I stare back in his eyes and I see he's being truthful.

I see everything.

I couldn't stand here for any longer.

I couldn't stand here after he said that he loved me...after 6 long painful and happy years he loves me.

I don't even know how I feel, hell how I even feel about him but inside me, deep down I feel something for him, even when I don't want it to show or think about it. I still loved him too.

Weird how I've ways felt that feeling inside me even after he left and broke my heart.

I hate that I have to say that I love him too. That he was my first and only love.

Even when I tried so hard to get him out my head I failed and he just ended up crawling back to me.

I'm just so scared to even love him again. Im scared if I were to "end up being with him again" he'd break my heart and leave me again to fend for myself and pick up my own broken pieces by myself.

I'm so scared.

I'm so afraid to admit the love I have for him. I'm afraid to admit it to myself although I already know.

I blinked and two tears ran down my cheek.

"Naomi, Conner is a very bad man and I'm trying to protect you from people like him. If I didn't somehow  show up to my restaurant, who knows what would've happened to you. I probabaly wouldve lost you." He said and confusion us added into my ball of emotions.