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Regret

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Lived my life to please others

Just to realise, no one is truly by my side,

Took my actions after calculating all the pros and cons

Speculating about scores society's judges would give me;

I Was naive, and thought if I go accordingly,

I can live my life happily,

They all were with me in my happy moments,

Objected when I wanted to break their norms

But they all disappeared into a thin mist when sadness engulfed me ;

Now when I look back,

Lying on my death bed,

I remember few people, but more desires my younger self had

That were brutally killed in the name of rules set by the villain of my life called "society".

Since things have gone out of hand ,

I am here having regrets ,

But also utterly proud of myself

That didn't let anybody break me,

I was happy but I wasn't free,

My soul was tied to gender based boundaries ;

And that wasn't about me,

More like other's prestige lied in my actions

Because I felt like carrying a burden,

A burden that didn't allowed me to break out of my shell

And try things I would have done well!

Some will remember me as a kind girl,

Some will mourn over my memories,

Some will not bother to shed their tears over me,

To some I would become a news;

And to others I may become a faint whisper of wind

That goes as quickly as it comes;

So remember my friend, this is a soul speaking to you 

Do what your heart wish for

And take the challenges.

It's better to be sorry and  saying  "oops"

Then saying "I would have" & having "what ifs"

Because you have got one life!

Don't waste it living upto hell lot of expectations ,

From people that doesn't matter !

Instead do what makes you feel better 

use it to live

And not just exist!!

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