Infatuated Oneshots (Infatuation Series #5)

Brody Alvaro - It's All Up To Fate

Moving On

I still don't think that I have any right to say this but...... this really sucks.

" Mom, I'll get going- "

" You don't need to say anything. Umalis ka na lang. "

Hindi man lang ako tingnan ng nanay ko as she was acting busy with playing with my 8 year old little sister, Thea Kate Alvaro. Napalunok na lamang ako sa reply nya.

Even my sister is not looking at me and just continued bragging about her new school bag to Mom but I know that she's saying it out loud for me to hear. Sumulyap pa sya para sakin para makita ang reaksyon ko na may mapanuyang ngiti.

I didn't say anything else as I left our small apartment.

It has been like this everyday ever since she was born. My parents suddenly started to favor her more than me when I was supposed to be their golden boy. I've been a promised child my whole life but it all suddenly changed after that one cursed day.

Never have I felt more filthy after we left that city in a hurry, not being able to handle the hate and the rebellion of people to cancel our family. I remembered how we were all quiet during that car ride but also so worried that I couldn't think of anything else other than Thea and Kate.

At first, I felt proud of myself that I couldn't admit that I was wrong. But once my parents started to realize my mistake and I haven't yet, they made sure to make me feel bad in the worst ways possible so that I could be enlightened myself.

" Sayang talaga. Gwapo pa naman sya eh. "

The girl's friend then pulled her closer to get away from my chair, " Huwag mong sabihin yan. Baka mamaya ay tayo ang sumunod. "

" Pinabili nga ako ni Mama ng self-defense kit nung nalaman nya na kaklase natin to. "

" Aling store? Bibili din ako. "

" Huwag na lang tayo magkahiwalay para at least 2 vs 1, diba.... "

" Sige. "

Umabot talaga hanggang Quezon city ang balitang yun. I'm not surprised na kumalat sya to every corner of the Philippines after that video went viral with my face not even blurred out. Lots of people recognized me in this school until it's finally confirmed that it was me who did it.

Of course, they ignored me and stayed away from me as far as they could. I'm even surprised they let me in even for a public community college. I just chose to keep to myself in this city as this is not my sanctuary anymore. There's no place for someone like me.

" Sigurado namang kahina nyan. Natalo kaya sya ng isang babae. " tawa nung isa nilang lalaki na kasama

My 16 year old self would surely be shocked with the life that I have now. He would be mad at all these idiots but most of all, he would be mad at me for letting them treat us like this. I've kept that monster at bay all these years for my sake and for other people.

This life really sucks but who am I to complain? I brought this upon myself and I've been beating myself up because of it. Somehow, it isn't enough at all. I've been letting other people beat me as well..... Just like now.

" Alvaro, is it alright for you to work alone? "

My other classmates just continued finding their project partners around the classroom. Since the number of students in this block is an odd number there is always one person working alone. And I always volunteer for it to be me while they always agree.

" Yes, Ma'am. "

Bumuntong-hininga na lamang ang teacher sakin. Even she couldn't properly look at me, I get why. I'm already used to it. Then she just continued discussing whatever work we have to do this time. I distracted myself by just focusing on how I should start doing this damned thesis. But the people behind me are just so annoying.