EVERYTHING

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I am watching her rehearsal for her sing and dance prod. Napailing na lang ako. Ang laki nang pinagbago niya when it comes to performing. Mas lalo pa siyang gumaling. She got the swag na bihira mong makikita sa isang performer. She moves gracefully at minsan mas magaling pa siya sa mga back-up dancers niya. And her voice, wow! I say, mas maganda ngayon ang boses niya. Para bang relaxed, nakapahinga. On point, ganon.

"Ehem!"

I saw Luis beside me.

"Malamang tunaw na si Sars sa titig mo. Ganda ba?"

"Kahit noon naman, she's beautiful, mas lalo na ngayon."

"Yun na! In love ka pa rin!"

I will not deny it. Siya pa rin hangang ngayon.

"Oh— Joke lang ha. Alam ko namang may Bea ka."

Right! Speaking of her, I need to talk to her.

I looked at Luis na lumapit kay Sarah at nagulat ako when he points at my direction.

Pakiramdam ko, namula ang buong mukha ko. Kumakaway sakin si Luis and Sarah's smiling. Lalapit na sana ako when someone blocked my view. He's holding a bouquet of flowers na naglalakad palapit kila Sarah.

He's here too! How can I forget. He transferred here.

He kissed Sarah on the cheek. She's smiling from ear to ear. How will I forget that he's always with Sarah. Naiiling na lang ako saka nagdecide na tumambay na lang muna with the boys.

"Oh, Pare— What's with the face? Si Bea na naman ba?"

Salubong ni Marco sakin when I enter our dressing room. I looked at him saka umiling.

"Ang aga-aga nakasimangot ka. Oo nga pala, I heard SHE have production number later— ehem!"

"What about it?"

"Are you kinda excited? Pare— I've seen her magazine cover. She's so hot! Mukhang mababaliw si Richard sa kanya."

"You knew?"

Natigilan ako sa sinabi ng kaibigan ko. They're not confirming anything to the public. And she's seeing me— Well, we're— Or baka ako lang talaga naga-assume? And the magazine? Anong magazine yan?

"They're not going public pero balita ko laging nakabuntot si Richard sa kanya. He's here di ba? Ang balita ko nga, yung ex mo dahilan kung ba't lumipat ng management yun. Nakakagulat lang din pero iba na ngayon e. Wala na kasing mangingialam sa lovelife niya. She can do whatever she wants, and even date whoever she wants.

Walang mangingialam? As much as I want to ask Marco about it, hindi na ako nagtanong pa. Mahirap na. I don't want them to think that I'm curious about her. And besides, I can ask her myself naman.

Talaga ba? I have the guts to ask her?

Yun ang nasa isip ko the whole day. Nangyari na ang prod niya and almost all of the artists nanonood. And as expected, siya na naman ang trending. But what I don't understand is, hindi niya ako masyadong pinapansin. Dahil ba andito ang boyfriend niyang hilaw?

I saw her entered her dressing room after her prod ang before the door closes, I saw him inside. I clenched my fist. I decided to call my girlfriend. Hindi pwedeng ganito ang mararamdaman ko. I hate it when she has the ability to make me feel this way. I hate being jealous.