Empty

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"Oh, yeah, time is money so don't fuck with mine"

Matthew's POV

*After the fight*

I feel so empty, I miss my Avery.

I can't handle these pressures

All I can say is, this stress hurts

Things are supposed to get better

I just need to put myself first

I'm always trying my hardest

Not to pick me apart, but this

Energy's killing my vibes now

Sometimes I just wanna drown out

All of the thoughts in my mind, too much

Going on at the same time, I

Wish it would stop and I've tried, but

Life just sucks, then we all die

That's just reality, yeah, don't lie to me

Yeah, I'm fucked up, but I don't wanna be

I wonder if I'm good enough

Or maybe I've just had too much

To drink, to smoke, to swallow

I'm drowning up my sorrow

There are rules I'll never follow

Pretend there's no tomorrow

I wish there was no tomorrow

But I'm empty inside, yeah, I'm empty inside

And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to die

Yeah, I'm empty inside, I just don't feel alive

And I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to die

Wish I could erase my memories

So I could stop feeling so empty

I wish that shit wasn't so tempting

But it's hard to resist when there are plenty

Of things, I could do to fuck me up

I wanna let go, but I'm feeling so stuck

So all I can do is fill up my cup

And sit here alone hoping no one disrupts

That's just reality, yeah, don't lie to me

Yeah, I'm fucked up, but I don't wanna be

I wonder if I'm good enough

Or maybe I've had just too much

To drink, to smoke, to swallow

I'm drowning up my sorrow

There are rules I'll never follow

Pretend there's no tomorrow

I wish there was no tomorrow

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