Forever and always

Chapter thirty-nine

I was now left alone once again, first Charlotte now Olivia, I don't deserve love. I end up screwing it up for myself every time.. Things had been different with Olivia, we love each other in a way that's indescribable. A love so strong is rare, but still I managed to fuck it up. What a horrible person I am..

A few hours later she had packed a lot of her things, and was gone. I have lost her for good now.. I was alone in the apartment that had just been turned into ours, a place we had together..

I took my phone and dialed the number that came up first. "Hey brother," Arthur said. "Arthur, can you come over?" I asked. "Sure, I'll finish my game and then I'll be right there, you good?".. "No I'm not, just text me when you leave" I said, then we said our goodbyes and hung up..

I walked around the apartment not knowing what to do with myself. I looked at the ultrasound pictures hanging on the fridge, which made me emotional and sad, so I took them down and placed them in a hidden drawer. I opened the drawer and saw a little black box. Yes, the family ring that Jos gave me.. A few tears rolled down my cheeks once again.
The ultrasound pictures, the family ring, it reminded me of her, of what I lost. What would have been my child, and what would have been my wife in the future..

After a little while Arthur had arrived. "You look terrible, what happened?!" Arthur said and pulled me into a hug. A hug which I indeed needed right now.
"Everything happened, we lost the baby Arth.. and Olivia she- she just broke up with me" I said, he looked surprised and speechless. "Wait what! Are you alright? when did all this happen?" he asked.
"We got the news yesterday that there was no heartbeat and there haven't been for a while, then earlier this morning we lost it for real, the fetus is out.. and she broke up with me about two hours ago" I answered.

We talked for hours and eventually Lorenzo joined us as well. I'm so grateful for my brothers. They are the best brothers anyone could wish for, and I'm thankful to have them in this hard time..

Olivia's pov:

I had nowhere to go, since I didn't have my apartment anymore. I drove around a bit, until I automatically found my way to Max and Kelly's apartment. I freshened up a little before leaving the car, since I had been crying a lot and I didn't want people on the street to see it.

I knocked on the door and thankfully they were home. "Olivia, come in!" Kelly said, I don't think Max had told her.. "Thanks, is Max home?" I asked and walked inside. "Yeah.. MAX! Your sister is here!" she called for him, after a little wait Max walked out of his game room and walked in my direction..

"Oli, are you alright?!" he asked and pulled me into a hug. "It's over, everything is over.." I said while crying silently. "What do you mean over?!" he asked and looked at me. "I broke up with him, I ruined everything".. "Aw, come here Oli.. let's go into the living room alright?" he said and then I followed him there.. He quickly told Kelly that we lost the baby, so she had an idea of what was going on.

After a while I calmed down. "I failed everything Max.. I failed the pregnancy, the best relationship ever, I'm just one big failure" I said and looked down at the floor.
"Listen to me Oli, you are not a failure. You are the strongest, best, sweetest and the biggest fighter ever. Don't talk to yourself like that, please!" he said.. "It's not true, I'm not strong, I'm so weak! Look at me now.." I answered. "You are being human, that's what's happening. It's normal acting like this after what you'd been through in the last 24 hours" he said and hugged me, while we were sitting on the couch.

I spoke with max for a long time, it was the best feeling having my brother by my side. Even though I knew what he was thinking, he was probably thinking that he was right, I shouldn't have get involved with Charles, but he's not right, I have loved every moment I have spent with Charles, and I certainly love him so much still, but sometimes things don't work out.