𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘰𝘯

40.

I have no idea how I am doing these days.

In the subway, I was standing still with my eyes opened and no blinks.

Not saying anything or even thinking.

Perhaps, I didn't breathe too.

Was it loneliness or peace?

Even the train shook my body back and forth, I wasn't bothered.

As I walked out the train and walked to my journey.

Plugged in my earphones, my left ear in and played the only music I know.

Looked through my Instagram or probably my Tiktoks.

As usual even when I'm scrolling through my phone, no messages at all.

Maybe a text message from my telecoms, 556622.

556622; your internet is expiring.

That's all.

Probably when I ate my lunch today, alone and looked around, at least a couple was laughing and eating together.

Was it annoying or saddening?

Right now I'm in my bed, after this long day and I'm here wondering.

What could've been better?