Forever and always

Chapter thirty-five

"Omg that's good news! So are you keeping it or? And have you told Charles?" he asked, he really looked happy on our behalf.. - "Yeah, I told Charles. But I don't think he is happy about it, he said he needed to clear his head and then walked out of the door" I said. "He did?! That doesn't look like something he would do.. I'm sorry Olivia.." he said. "No right, he didn't seem just a tiny bit happy about it, which is probably the thing that made me most sad" I said.

"You should really have a talk with him later, this is huge and something that will affect both of your lives forever, so please you guys should talk about it and make the decision that's right for you guys" he said. "We will, I promise.." I answered.

We talked a bit more about it, and then we hung up. It was great to talk with my best friend about it. I knew he would understand even though he's not a girl, but he always understands me in any situation, that's what makes him the best friend in the world.

About two hours later, Charles finally came home again.. "I was not sure you would come home again," I said, a bit frustrated. "Please Olivia I can't handle this right now, but we have to talk about what we're gotta do" he said and sat down next to me.. "Yeah we should, I'm sorry. But I just don't think it's fair that you just left me alone, we both are shocked and surprised, but leaving the other one alone is not fair, we are in this situation together" I confronted him..

"I'm sorry for leaving, I was just shocked about it, and I can't believe this happened" he said. "Me either it's not like I planned this.. I mean do you even want this baby?" I asked and he took a deep breath. "I don't know.. I'm not sure I can handle being a father right now, with my job I wouldn't see the baby so much and whenever I have kids I want to be there for them all the time, and we are still very young.." he said before I interrupted him. "Then why didn't you just say no, sounds like you have already made up your mind.." I said and looked away. "It's not a no, but I'm just saying we are only 24 years old, we're still young and there's so much more I wanna do before starting a family" he said, and those words really hit me.. "So it's a no.." I said and a little tear rolled down my cheek. "It's up to you, it's your body and your choice. But I'm sure if you decide to keep it, I will love it anyway" he said and moved a bit closer to me. "Yeah, but it will not be the same.. I won't enjoy it if I know the baby is unwanted" I said.. He didn't say a word, he just looked down at the floor.

A few hours went by and we didn't talk much during the last few hours. I walked into the bathroom where I washed my face and then went to bed. "I'm sorry.." Charles said and laid next to me, and then gave me a goodnight kiss.. "Goodnight.." I said and ignored his apology.. It was a weird situation, also because we have never had an argument, so why do our first one have to be such a serious life changing one, this is not fair..
___

The following day was new years eve, originally we had the whole evening planned, to go eat something good for dinner and then celebrate new years with most of the drivers at a local nightclub.. But with me being pregnant, I would not attend.

"So, what do we do today?" Charles asked as I was sitting at the dining table eating my bowl of boring cereal. "You should go, I can stay here, it's fine" I said. "Don't be silly, of course you should not be alone on new years eve.." Charles said and sat next to me.

"I don't care, I can take care of myself. You should go party with your friends" I said and smiled. "And you think I really would let my girlfriend be alone on new years eve, how bad of a boyfriend do you really think I am?" he asked, while looking at me, waiting for me to answer.. "You're not a bad boyfriend, but I really think you should go to the party, and then we can figure everything out tomorrow or the following day" I said..

Charles pov:

The tension in the room was terrible. In the last twenty four hours Olivia's and my relationship has really been put on a test. This news about her being pregnant has changed so much. I want to have kids with her of course, but not already. I want to be there for my kids, and with my job situation right now it will just not be possible. I have a contract in formula one that many people can only dream about, and that is where my focus is for the next few years. I wanna see more of the world and enjoy the time being young and not having to settle down right now..