Whispers Of The Past

Breaking The Silence

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The ocean bathed in golden light and the city was still breathing,
Flaming sunset melted in the dusk of a balmy jasmine evening,
Albeit nature's stirring, I surrendered to the midnight silence,
Feeling stranded like an island with no hope on this horizons.

Waiting for the silent wind the darkness and the fog deepens,
Falling on the poor wounded heart and my reason weakens,
An empty shell drunk on broken promises, a wretched life,
Soul pierced by memory, a cold blade twisting like a knife.

Foggy mist came quiet, heart ached as the coldness gripped,
Wind drifting away the drenched skies and naked branches ripped,
Unknowingly being drawn to a place I had long forsaken,
Just for a fleeting moment and the dark side was awakened.

Dusty silence, alas the voices inside my head that only I can hear,
Heavy thoughts always lurking behind the shadow of a latent fear.
Surrounded by the darkroom safelight's crimson glare,
Living in a dismal world, a fallen star fading into thin air.

Starless midnight sky, dead calm sweeping across in the breeze,
Assailed by doubts and regrets, crashed when feeble hope cease,
Pursued an elusive and illusory enthrallment, so eager to please,
Defeated now looking for guidance to give my heart some ease.

Shambling and wounded looking out into the troubled darkness,
Your entreating glance filling my eyes with indelible sadness,
Eerie silence comes again and unavoidable apprehension instills,
Utterly anxious yet making excuses for my clumsy social skills.

Slight quiver in your voice piercing this wall of obstinate silence,
Your adamant refusal to back down and resisting with defiance.
Now that I saw through your cruel lies and webs of deception,
Shadow of sadness growing, drawn from the state of dejection.

Feeling the bittersweet sensation of this life, gloomy heart bleeds,
Stinging dryness and strain wetted with fresh tears beneath the lids,
Feelings get me stuck in loneliness, dreams reflecting all fears,
Breathless silence drew out, raining down endlessly on my ears.

Your dark penetrating blue eyes crossed with guarded tension,
Calmness under fire molding into a storm cloud of dissension,
Aching in painful pangs of hopelessness, heart and stomach turning,
Your body's frozen rigid, brain whirling and throat burning,
Bewildered and astonished at the setness look on my face,
Feeling the guilt, shame and regret that time will not erase.

Always safe in the knowledge of hope and faith I had in you,
Trusting you more than you deserved, a fool that I believe too,
Taken for granted and slowly disappearing for you have someone new.
Astonished by my painful bluntness when I'm no longer contained,
Breaking the silence, my voice now echoing and truth attained.

Adjusting my life to your absence and silenced painful emotions,
Mind drifting to strangely bleak thoughts astray on this endless ocean,
Alone I choose to fall, all sorrows silencing my foolish hopes,
Burying what i once sought, now nothing more than a cruel hoax.
Happiness it's elusive, a speck on the horizon hiding inside clouds,
Past vanishing through a nostalgic haze and with gloom enshrouds.

Melting cage's bars to gain my freedom, still vast oceans to cross,
Pain of this final separation making my eyes blurred in tears of loss.
No longer defined by a dark past or trapped in recurrent nightmares,
Own world created, better alone than lonely climbing life's stairs.

Fake happiness is still the worst sadness, just make your choice,
And walk away from the toxic who seeks to muffle your voice.
Rather to be hurt by truth than to be consoled with a lie, you agree,
Better a little loss now than a long sorrow, with nothing yet free.