Whispers Of The Past

Leaving It All Behind

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Ensnared in a dark web, hunted by demons at night,
Passing through the sea of stars awaiting the daylight,
Numbing feelings of self-doubt, quell anxiety and fear,
Breaking through the fog in hopes this dream will disappear.

Traveled against the light in search of a faraway shadow,
Gathering dust on memories by tears inside a heart so hollow,
Walking silently in tranquility alas a cold and bitter journey,
Now lost in a maze of lies amid chasing ghosts too many.

Masking piled worries, resigned to a lost fight and hopeless,
The image wrapping around thoughts I stood motionless,
And even though the end's in sight, waiting on a lifeline,
Stirring past emotions that can't be locked for a lifetime.

Throat felt dry and eyes moistened chocked with grief,
Voice swallowed in violent anger struggling in disbelief,
Pretending not to heed the heart wrenching cries,
Ache shaking out of a desolate soul shackled by lies.
Face expression changed from shock and disbelief to sadness,
Screaming silently inside, under a fake smile slipping into madness.

Drained body and mind at recollection's tide that I've endured,
Hovering in uncertainty albeit may seem I'm self-assured,
You drew memories in my mind that cannot be erased,
Painting colours in my heart that can never be replaced.
Dieing one piece at a time, losing sight of who I used to be,
Now an empty dormant shell that doesn't feel at all like me.

Too late to put the blame on others for you've made your choice,
When you robbed me of all hope and drowned out my voice.
Behind closed lids it's clearer and more light for me to see,
There's no reason now to stay, when you're happy without me...

Maybe foolish or too scared to say my restless thoughts aloud,
Afraid to lose the one that matters, drowning in the crowd.
Lost on this road and falling to the wispers of a troubled mind,
Only to run away into a sullen silence leaving it all behind.

Although easier to be angry than it's to be sad,
Forgot there's a difference and it hurts so bad.
Broken trust and you've lost me, my heart burried in the abyss,
Where ink-colored dreams are out of reach, yet I will persist.

Time flowing and the weary left behind was soon forgotten,
Reason for every night's pain when you look back on so often.
Past can't be remedied and regret cannot erase the stain,
Mind can't forget when I was just an option and bury the pain...
Words hiding all problems while burning a damaged heart,
After everything's lost, with fresh eyes open and time restarts.

After long and aimless wonderings getting to a sure destination,
Rather than memories or expectations, life is present realization.
Fear and pain shouldn't stop life, so alter your own world,
Find ways to end the hurt, yield in the past to a destiny unfurled.