Whispers Of The Past

Embrace Change

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Through the smokey prism of time the weary eyes grew misty,
Trapped inside an infinite and quiet sadness, drowning in whiskey.
Can't see or hear but the heart still clearly remembers,
Memories not long ago buried, burning down to embers.
Recounting the time of darkness, mind on the verge of destruction,
Pain coursing through the body ensuing spontaneous combustion,
Sadness and regret issuing forth like a painful violent eruption.

Silence broken with the sound of a shattered dream,
Wavering through night and day, gleam by gleam,
Lost in a small dark room with nothing left that's certain,
Moonlight shone through cracks in the half-closed curtains.

Staring at the empty glass now resting on the worn-out table,
Eyes closed to shut his face out of my mind as long as I'm able.
Making it double, but the chest pain will not go away,
'Don't say you know me, can't you understand, I'm not OK'.

Days melted together, voice shaking with anger and fears,
Welded by surreal emptiness and redundant routine of tears.
Fighting to stay awake, afraid of falling into a nightmare filled sleep,
Cloaked in black sadness, loneliness and anxiety started to creep.

Out of tears, just dry whimpers, resting hot cheek against the glass,
Echoed over the still silence of dark, reduced to ragged gasps, alas
Hating the broken sobs that split the silence like a knife,
Sweat trickled over my clammy skin waked to sudden strife.

Old memories halted, despite best efforts to control,
Shielding from bitterness to taint my heart and soul.
Feeling so far away convinced I was never meant to win,
No hope left within me, for I'm the one who won't fit in.

My strength forsook me, trapped where I do not belong,
Not knowing anymore, what I was still doing wrong,
Betrayed and replaced, after all I've been put through,
Losing all trust, growing angry, and frustrated too.

Life is pain of change and loss we can't avoid, no use to fuss,
Reality check to stop lying to myself and turn the page on us.
For the hurt will ease, when we're willing to embrace change,
Pain will be less making space for happy, our life to rearrange.

It's okay if I was not the favourite chapter you have written,
But I hope you smile sometimes yet content for the end given,
And remember the moments we shared, be it pain or love,
When you flip back to the pages that I was still a part of.

Regardless of the past, we have a spotless future too,
Having loved and lost, breaking ties with the old and new,
In the depths of winter, losing one just gains another,
We learned that within us lay an invincible summer.

"Life is not about ignoring the bad, but being able to see it, accept it, and grow with it."

Dedicated to @AlphaKelly @Aaron_Ledgers @Mousewriter88 @RaveHaynes @LourdesSituicoCacha @ivyrenAl @aaanmil