Iiris' PoV
During the flight I managed to sleep for a while, but the closer to Helsinki we got, the more nervous I got. It would be only a matter of time until I was going to stand behind Aleksi's door, ringing his doorbell. So many thoughts ran through me that it was so hard to sit still in such a narrow place as the plane was. My eyes kept on checking the time and calculating how I would spend my every minute as soon as I landed. The whole planning and thinking obviously made me sweat so I had to change my plans a little.
So instead of going straight to Aleksi, I still decided to stop at my AirBnB in Vantaa. It was not too far from the airport so I was there quite soon after landing. It felt weird to be back in Finland. The weather was so much different to what I got used to in the South, but this was still my homeland and I could always go back to Spain if my plans with Aleksi did not work. Of course I wanted them to work. I was ready to work towards the new life with him but I had made a decision while on my journey and it was to think at least two steps ahead.
My AirBnB was a small, one room apartment with a shower. And the shower was the place where I dragged myself soon after getting there. I was not entirely sure if the shower even helped me the way I was hoping because I was still nervous and still sweating. I could not wait to see Aleksi's face. I could not wait to hug him and tell him how much I really missed him. Was he even going to be at home? What if he had someone there? I found myself overthinking it all again but I couldn't help it. I was the one who left, leaving nothing but a note and a shirt behind. It was really even a miracle that Aleksi kept in touch with me after my shitty disappearance act. I was ashamed that I did so and I wanted to tell that to Aleksi too. Things just did not go as I was thinking they would go - me just hanging at his place, avoiding life outside the house and hoping that in some weird way Rauli just vanishes from the earth. But no, instead I shared a night with the one man I did not expect it to happen and now he might be the only one I even want in my life. No matter how drunk we were that night, it was still great and it woke up so many things inside of me which I thought would be dead a long time ago.
Leaving the AirBnB was now another mission. Each step I took that carried me closer to the door, got my heart jumping out my chest. I knew my taxi was going to be here any minute and I should not let it wait, I was struggling to leave the place. For the past month I had only sent messages to Aleksi, but now I was going to face him, speak face to face...
"Okay, Iiris.. You can do this.." I whispered and looked at myself from the mirror. I had cut my long hair shorter while I was away, I just hope Aleksi would like the way I look now. My eyes were not as sad as they used to be and I hoped that Aleksi would notice that too. I took one last breath and put my jacket on before leaving the apartment.
So far I had not had any messages from Aleksi after the one he sent me just before my flight. I had not sent him any after that either although I so badly wanted to tell him that we would see sooner than he thinks. I just could not stop thinking about what he says when he sees me behind his door... Is he even going to say anything? I knew I had a lot to say... Just no idea from where to start.
The whole way from my place to Aleksi's I was creating all kinds of scenarios in my mind, just like the past few days. And once the taxi was there and it was time to get out, I found it extremely hard. For a moment I even considered asking the driver just to take me back to where he picked me up, but the longer I stared at Aleksi's house, the more I wanted to be there with him.
"Thanks." I finally gathered myself and undid the seatbelt. The driver just nodded and I opened the door. It felt like opening the door into the future... This one movement was going to decide a lot about the rest of my life. As soon as I was out, the taxi took off and now there was just a short driveway to walk. The lights were on so he was home, I just hoped that he would not look out of the window right now because I had no clue how I would handle that now because I had my own plans.
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After Her Love
FanfikceIt was always too good to be true and Aleksi had to learn it the hard way. As much as she loved Aleksi, the two of them could never be happy because she belonged to someone else and their love was stronger than anything else on this planet. Is there...