Never Without You │ BOTW modern AU fanfic

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I know better now than to keep my thoughts and insecurities contained. Link has proven over and over again that I can talk to him about anything. He always said we can go my pace but maybe he can help me figure out what I want and how far we should go.

"What's up?" Link ask.

I don't know where to start... Should I tell him I don't want to sleep with him? Or just not yet? Or maybe that I do want to? Should I ask him what he expects to happen next? Should I ask him what he wants regardless of how ready I might feel? Maybe I need to ease into the topic. I don't want to give him the wrong impression.

"Can I ask you something?" I should start off by asking about his experience and then I can determine his expectations.

"Yeah, ask me anything," he smiles adorably.

Would it be weird if I just questioned him about his past relationships? I don't even know if he has ever had a serious relationship before. Are we a serious relationship? What even is serious? 

What is an easier and less personal question I could start with? How do other guys do this with new girlfriends? What did Impa say about other guys again? 

'No matter how gentle, men ain't patient.'  Great advice, Impa, thanks for nothing.

"Are you going to ask?" Link laughs.

"Sorry I was thinking about Impa."

"Impa?" He raises a brow. "Right now?"

"She said something about the way guys function and I just remembered what it was."

"What'd she say?"

"It's stupid." And definitely not helpful in this situation. "She pretty much said guys just want the one thing and can't wait."

"That's not really true."

"I know," I smile. I have the best proof right in front of me. Or... on top of me. "Don't read too much into this, I'm only asking to prove a point. But guys don't actually bring condoms wherever they go, right?" Okay that sounded way too weird said out loud!

"No." He shrugs. "Maybe some."

"Really?" He shrugs again. "What about single guys?"

"I wouldn't know, I'm not single," he laughs. 

"Have you ever done that?"

Another shrug. "I guess, yeah."

Did he just answer affirmatively?! Where did my voice go?

Link looks confused, probably because I'm staring at him in utter shock. This is not the answer I expected and surely not the reaction he expected.

"Do you still do that?" If he shrugs one more time--

"Sometimes."

"What?"

And there it is: another shrug. "Mhm," he he says impassively and adds, "I don't bring one everywhere I go," as if that changes anything.

"But you have one?"

"I don't use it, obviously."

"But you have one?"

"I guess." 

He has to stop using that word or I'll lose my mind.

"Why?" I ask in a high pitched voice. 

He's still lying on top of me, and although he's holding himself up, I find it incredibly difficult to breathe. I don't know what to think about this. Was Impa right?! Is he like other guys? No, he's different, I know he is!