ch7 "I'm Gay"

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Dans POV

I was walking to school and I was drown in my own thoughts about how it had been three days since Phil came out to me and i was happy that things were exactly the same. He hasn't told anyone but his close family and me but today he was planning on telling Chris and Pj.


I was at school now and I have english first but i still had 5 minutes until lesson and just went to the library and just thought about anything and everything, I should really be revising seen as I had my GSCEs very soon but oh well procastinating is what i do best.


BEEP BEEP


Time for English, I saw phil and sped walked to catch up with him

"Hi Dan" phil said joyfullly

"hiya, you okay?" i replied

"i'm fine, how abouts you?"

"im good, When are you going to tell Chris and Pj?"

"lunch... well if i can"

"You can! I will be with you"


We was in English now with twat 1 and 2 not being here yet because they were always late because it was "sooooo cool"


(Ten minutes into lesson)

Al and Mark weren't here yet probaly skipping school and we was watching bloody shakespeare again and it's so boring so i just didn't listen; I had these thoughts in my head ever since phil told me about him being gay and i just kept on thinking, is it weird that I dont like girls in THAT way? should I like girls at 16? it's not like I've ever been atracted to boys, but im not sure now. And what does phil mean i'm not his type, sho-

"Daniel Howell pay attention to the fine litrarture of the spectaular shakespeare!" my English teacher was a bit too passionate about shakespeare; Phil giggled at this, his laugh was adorable - NO stop im not gay, no homo!


(walking to lunch)

I am really anxious about telling them, What if they react badly? what if they tell people? what if al and mark find out? what if they are homophobic? what if they dont talk to me again?

"Phil are you okay?!" Dan said very worriedly "phil your hyperventilating!"

I didnt even realise I was hyperventilating, I was having another stupid panic attack! I tried to say Dan i can't but he couldnt understand. I just stood there breathing heavily like an idiot


after five minuetes of a worried Dan i had stopped panicking and i finally managed to say to dan "Dan i can't"

"phil you can, your stronger than you think, they won't mind they'll act the same"

"okay, but lets not go in just yet"


We walked around the school in silence once and got to the door i walked in and saw a friendly looking Chris and Pj. I was calmer than before. We ate where there was no one else so it was okay to say what i was going to say so i just said it "guys...um... i gay"

"wait..What?" a confused Chris said

"im gay" my voice craced and atear ran down my face as i tried to hold them in.

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cliff hanger

A/N my "K" key is really bad and i might sometimes miss that out so just ignore that.

hope you enjoyed it! it is abit longer than the other chapters


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