Thingolwenkosazana
"All I want is a normal life Luhle, I feel as if I'm living a life for other people not for myself I've been trying so hard to work around this calling but it's not easy. I've experienced so much and I'm only turning 21 soon, things are just not easy on my side" I say taking a glass of wine
"what would make you happy?" Luhle
"I don't think I'll ever be happy if I'm still with that family, it makes me sad that they get what they want and they're not interested in what we are feeling, me especially...I didn't ask for this what if I'm in love with someone else? I'm literally forced to marry this guy" Me
"you know you'll never find peace and what you want if you don't stay true to yourself, I see friend you try to put other people first and do what you think is right but my love, it may be right for other people but not for you" Luhle
"I don't know anymore" I feel tears building up
"there was a reason why there was a separation between them right? Your grandmother at Khetha's what what "
"yes, she was in love with someone else" Me
"Thingo! the history will be repeating itself friend and this will never come to an end, do you love Khetha? " Luhle
"alot changed" Me
"Listen I just want the best for you, I'll support you in anything you do, I don't want to drop everything then things go south but at the same time I don't want you to say stay if you're not happy" Luhle
"go south? on which side? , the only people who are suffering here are the Khoza's, my things are going accordingly "
"for how long though, you already made a promise to that family"
"I didn't promise anything" Me
"well it's the same thing mngani, all I'm saying is Sandile is a normal guy that you want, he is far from the Khoza family but babes you've been through alot that you just going to give up just because there's someone else in the picture , I'm not saying you shouldn't drop this whole thing, I'll support you in any decision you make"
She was right , I didn't know things will turn out like this, I have to marry Khetha if it doesn't work atleast I tried. I'm not letting history repeat itself.
We sit in silence for a few minutes
"you okay?" Luhle
"yea I'm good, let me get going thank you so much" Me
I take my bag on Luhle's desk and we share a long hug before I leave her office. I check the time and I'm already late, my dad and I are going to his home eMzinyathi, I've been there once and I don't have a clear picture of how it looks right now
I take an Uber home and I find my dad packing, he's not excited about this trip you can tell, he was never close to his family they always treated him like an outsider because Nomkhitha was the second wife, they didn't like her but he has no choice but to come with me, Khoza family will be there for lobola negotiations first thing in the morning.
I run upstairs and my clothes are already packed, I take a quick shower I put a dress and slides, I then make my way to the car with my suitcase, I help dad with his bag, We get inside the car and we leave.
"dad are you okay" I ask looking at him
He clears his throat "I'm okay, are you okay?"
"I don't know how I feel really" Me
"it's understandable and it is scary you're the only child I have " him
"I hope everything goes accordingly I'm over this whole thing, we're staying for how long?" Me
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Zimpande Zamathonga (unedited)
General FictionThingo is a city girl that has been constantly hearing whistles from people she can't physically see; since the age of 7. 10 years later her father takes a decision of cutting home schooling and he takes her to a secondary school where things change...
