She's all His

Chapter Three| A happy birthday and the hospital

*Sadie*

Something knocking on my bedroom door woke me and I'm not happy. I groan as I get out of bed and storm towards my door pissed, once I opened it "what?" I hissed "cool yourself Sadie, I came to tell you that it's already 9" Xavier told me. My eyes widened and I slammed my oak door to get dressed. Today is the day I'm going to visit my sister, today is the day I will speak to her for the first time in 8 years.

I threw on a pair of dark blue jeans, a black t-shirt, my combat boots, my leather jacket, my shades, and left my hair down deciding not to mess with it. I ran out of my room, downstairs, and straight out the door to my bike, and just like that I was gone. It was maybe a 15 minute trip, considering how fast I was going, and let me tell you this I felt like I was doing something right for once in my life. Parking my bike, I slid my shades onto the top of my head, brushing my hair back, took a deep breath and walked down the gravel path until I found her. I kneeled down to her grave and began talking.

"Hey Sallee, I know it's been 8 years since I last came but I needed to talk to you, I miss you sissy and I'm sorry that I didn't keep my promise and I let you down, but please understand sissy that what I did was for you and ever since mom and dad.... I have never been the same. Everything's different now, I have been leading the gang since I was 12." I paused taking a shaky breath "I mean I didn't see it coming, I don't think anyone did, I know that your death wasn't an accident but everyone else thought it was, mom and dad thought it was, I was trained from then on out. I'm having nightmares Sallee, and not the normal kind, I swear they are so real that when I wake up I can still feel it."

"That's enough about me, how are you? Is heaven good? I wish I could see you again, hear you again but I can't. I'm friends with two cops at the station Josh and Max, I know you knew them both cause they were the ones who always interrogated you. Well Sallee, Happy birthday to us, you would have grown to have been such a beautiful 28 year old."

"I miss you sissy, but before I leave promise me one thing, that you'll never leave me alone?" I asked into the wind and a tear slid down my cheek as I began to walk away from her grave but I stopped turned around and walked back. "You know, it's hard for me every birthday and I always do the same shit to help get rid of the pain. I can handle mom and dad being gone but you? It's too much, you were my idol, my older sister I looked up to for help, you were supposed to be there to pick me up when I fell but you never were, you were supposed to be there for me but you weren't there."

"That's why I don't come anymore, cause it's hard for me the last time I was here, after I left I tried to kill myself. Its so goddamn hard without you, I needed you, I still need you but I have to accept the fact that you will never come back." By then I was bawling as I fell to my knees "you left when I needed you most" I whispered as I bawled up next her grave. " I know I did and I'm so sorry, Sadie." I heard her soft voice and I looked up to see her still 15 year old face, but behind her stood two people, one a man and the other a woman, "mom and dad" I whispered and they only smiled "Sadie, you didn't let me down."

"Now as I look at what you have done in your life, it's everything I knew you could be, Sadie your the leader of a gang, your strong. I was there to watch every time you crumbled to pieces from the death of me, mom, and dad, but remember we're always right beside you no matter what, I promise. I love you Sadie and Happy birthday to us, also before we go take it easy on that kid that wants to join the gang. I have seen what your future holds just take it easy Sadie and say hello to Josh and Max for me, okay?" I could only nod "Goodbye Sadie" with that all three of them disappeared.

I shot up from the ground, 'I dreamed seeing them?' I questioned myself. I don't even remember falling asleep, but I guess I did. I pulled my phone to catch the time "2 just great" I said to myself. I got up brushing the grass off of me, looked down at Sallee's grave and whispered "goodbye" and walked to the entrance of the cemetery.