It's you always you. ( Rewriting)

Chapter 28 -we meet again.

"Are you going somewhere mom?" She nods "Some friend house and you won't be home and plus the house is clean so there was no use of Salma."

"Mom? Why do I feel like you are hiding something? "Layla smiles and picks up her purse and walks closer to Marwah and holds her hands in his. "I Have someone in mind, and I want you to meet him and get married."

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The whole day while working her mind was on what her mother said. she wants her to get married " .... if you want me to be happy, if you want me to be calm and not to worry for you so often, then you will say yes to the guy. I as a mom want to see you get married settle down have kids my Jaan."

She was just so disturbing with everything. she sighs "I shouldn't have come to work today. It's Thursday today I should get off tomorrow and I'm off on weekends anyway." She muttered to herself.

As the day went on, it was 5 o'clock. She clocked out, picked up her belongings, and said goodbye to the nurses and other doctors before leaving.

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Noah's Pov

I'm going to meet her tomorrow.

the whole night I couldn't sleep. I Took a shower and prayed after praying I lay down. I kept on changing sides, but nothing helped me to calm down.

Yes, I hate her.

I hate her so much.

I need to speak with her once so I can ask her why she did what she did. I will not accept what other people have to say about her. She never loved me, and I was always forcing her, and I wanted to hear it straight from her mouth.

I am scared, Anxious, depressed, broken--Shaking my head I get up to see time it's 3am.

I make wudu (Ablution) after praying I sit down in my prayer mat.

"Oh, my dear Allah, it's been a hard time, it's been the hardest, yet I know there is more to come. I have lost myself and you found me. Allah? --the pain I am feeling I will not complain, you have never abandoned me even on the days I have abandoned you, oh my dear lord there has been days where I could not carry on, there are days where my heart is so torn that I cannot breathe without feeling anxiety, Ya Allah your mercy is what is keeping me alive. Oh, my dear lord I cannot live in this World without your guidance, Ya Allah guides me towards you. It's always you and will be you" I wiped my own tears like a baby.

I just sat there slowly then laying on my prayer mat, before I knew it, I was fast asleep.

My arms hurt, so I moved them slowly. I smile when I open my eyes and see that I am still lying on my prayer mat. I immediately take a shower, get dressed, grab my phone from the bed, and leave my room after checking the clock and seeing that it is six in the morning.

I arrived in the mosque just in time for the Fajr prayer. (Morning prayer) I quickly enter the mosque and stood behind the imam as he led the prayer. His recitation is so beautiful, after we were done, I just sat down in my place as everyone is slowly leaving.

I just look down in my hands.

"Asalam alaikum Noah" I look up to see the imam, who I often see whenever I would come here.

"WA alakum Salam" I reply back sadly smiling. He then sits next to me.

He taps my shoulders and I look at him.

"Maybe Allah is waiting to accept your Dua. He knows that if he accepts it now, you will stray away from him. He's making you wait not because he hates you but because he loves you so much that he doesn't want you to leave. Sometimes Allah will accept your Dua because all the tears you shed and all the 'Ya Allah' in every Dua, even though one —he gives it to you, you'll drift away. Until Allah knows you can't take anymore, he will give it to you. If Allah has not given you something right now, why are you being impatient? just pray and keep making Dua. Keep in mind that even if Allah accepts my Dua, I will still pray no matter the situation. Keep praying and Allah will give you something you've never even imagined. Wait for it because Allah's timing is always right." I close my eyes concentrating on his words. words that I badly needed.