Never forgotten

Chapter 1 ( The alarm )

"Beep beep"

There is is again..that same exact annoying sound of my alarm going off...
I've sort of gone numb to the fact that days are passing by over and over again and yet they all feel blurred into one.

I was sixteen only yesterday, it feels and yet here I am..people telling me I'm eighteen and in the year 1992.
It doesn't make sense..none of it does.

You might be wondering " How is this girl so confused? She doesn't even know her own age?"
Well, it's sort of a long story and one that shatters me when I even start to replay it in my head.
So, instead let me introduce myself-
My name is Delilah and yes I know it's like from that Tom Jones song.... I've heard that enough throughout my years in highschool..I get it..ok?

Anyways that's my name and I live in Manhasset, NY.
Basically I live in the suburbs..yes the stereotype suburbs from the movies but I promise you it's not that staggering..at least not to me anymore.

"Delilah!" Oop that's my mom shouting me... Crap it's 7:40am already? I really need to stop talking to myself.
"Damn" I mutter as I quickly throw on some of my favorite baggy high waisted jeans on, since not only are they super comfortable but also they're supposably fashionable nowadays....so.. win win I say.
I then grab a vest top, flannel and a pair of converse and voila I'm finished..
Well...that is except makeup and hair.
And recently I refuse to leave the house without my black eyeliner and oh my goodness..I have to admit since watching the  "dirty dancing" film, it now takes me an  hour to do my hair as it has to be as curly as I can make it...just like Jennifer Grey's...my role model...
"Delilah! If you don't get your bum down here this minute..I swear....you can walk the two miles!"
Sounds like it's time to get going..
"Ok mom I get it I'm coming" I shout down the stairs..
I grab my bag and run downstairs..holding the bannister for dear life as I nearly fall down..as I stumble over my untied shoelace.
Great start to a great day I thought to myself.

Today's my first day at my new college and it's going to be one of the hardest days of my life since it will be without him...

All throughout highschool he was always by my side and I was surrounded by his laughter and sarcastic remarks and that always made me feel complete...
But now I have to walk through them damn doors on my own..

But though like my mom keeps telling me
"A new start is what it is and what is needed"

But....how am I supposed to have a new start when I'm not sure I'm ready to move on and forget him when that's the least he deserves....