into you

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im slipping away and he doesn't know, he doesn't notice. because i won't let him "they are probably wondering where we are" dream says buttoning his trousers, he doesn't know

"what are going going to wear" he turns to me, i feel exposed. as if everyone is watching me, but he can't know. fake it till you make it, like everyone says. i have to fake it until he loves me like i love him "i figured we could stay here, all day. naked. you inside me" i tell him smirking, it's all fake. if i actually was doing it because i wanted to i wouldn't be covering myself with the duvet

he frowns slightly as he turns to me putting his flannel on"george why are you being so sexual all the sudden" he asks me, no no no. has he caught on? i crawl over to him, making sure the duvet is covering me at all costs, and grab him by his flannel and kiss full of lust "you know why" i say to him in a moan "no i don't george" he says pulling away, i feel myself panic slightly

"i can't get enough clay, i need you inside me and to touch me all the time" i moan out dragging him with me as i lay down and kissing him. when he pulls away to breathe i quickly pull him back in so he can't question me. i start dragging his flannel off his shoulders, dream starts leaning more into it and taking more control. i take his hand and move it down for him to touch me under the covers

he gasp in shock and tries to pull away from the kiss but i stop him, i can't let him have time to question me. if i let him he will start thinking and eventually catch on "you two alive in there? we're supposed to meet up with some people and take photos all five of us" nick yells from the other side of the door, dream pulls away and breathe heavily "yeah out in a second" he says as he's about to fix his shirt and flannel

"we will continue this later" dream says turning back to me, fuck he will have time to think about how off i have been acting lately. without thinking i take his hand and use it to apply pressure on my erection. he gasp and pull away

dream looks at me wide eyed as i sit up, shit shit shit! "george what the hell!" i don't answer him, he caught on didn't he "george what the hell is going on with you? your never this sexual, why all the suddenly all you want is sex" i just look at him trying to come up with a lie, but everything is blank

he fixes his flannel before leaving without another word, i failed

he doesn't love me, he doesn't love me the way i love him. my breathing starts to quicken, i failed for him to love me. this is why i never let myself fall in love, they break my heart and don't love me back

i dry my tears over and over again as i put on baggy shorts and a big t-shirt

i feel exposed as i walk out of the elevator, everyone is looking at me, judging me. i look around to find my friends, i feel eyes on me every where. their judging me, judging me for falling in love, judging me for not being able to get him to fall in love with me the way i fell in love with him

none of them love me, not dream not clay. they both hate me "george!" i look up and see quackity run towards me with his arms open and a huge smile. fake it til you make it. i smile back at him and hug him tightly, i notice karl looking at me concerned. did dream tell them?

"you tried to sleep with him?" karl asks confused after he drags me away from earshot from everyone else "he told you guys" i ask in slight panic as i look at dream, i turn back to karl as he's about to speak "he told me, george he looked frightened!" karl tells me as he hugs himself, karl looks concerned and scared at the same time

"why" i say, i already know why, he doesn't know how to tell me he doesn't love me that way "george your tried to have sex with him, you backed out yesterday and did it later on that night, you had sex the moment he woke up and you tried to have sex with him almost right after you guys were done. george this isn't like you" karl tells me, he's concerned, i can hear it in his voice