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Natasha smith was always known as the 'quiet girl', she has a tight circle of childhood friends, and spends her days buried in books. Due to her anxiety she's always struggled making friends and putting herself out there but now's the perfect op...
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What. the. Fuck.
Now I'm not the type of person who swears but I feel like it's needed. He kissed me, Ezra kissed me. Oh my god. I bet he regrets it, i mean who says 'fuck' after kissing someone.
Ok maybe i shouldn't have ran away after but when the guy you've been in love with your whole life acts like that after he kisses you what can you do?
As soon as I left his apartment I ran to the elevator so I could take my car somewhere. I have no idea where I'm going so I just drive. I feel tears running down my face so I quickly wipe them away.
I found a coffee shop about 5 miles away from home so I know no one will find me. I also turn off my phone so no one can contact me, I just want to be alone. I get out of my car making sure I have my phone and wallet. I also grab my book that's in my glove box.
Thank god I always bring one.
I walk into the cafe and order a hot chocolate before finding a table furthest away from people and the door. As soon as I sit down with my stuff the tears start to rush out again and I can't hold them back.
It's just my luck right? The first guy i've ever loved kisses me and acts like that. Maybe I'm a bad kisser. I mean I've never done it before.
Wait. oh my god.
He took my first kiss. God, I've never wanted to smack someone so much in my life. I also want to cry until the end of time. God I wish my mom was here and she would know what to do. Stupid fucking drunk driver, took my mom away from me.
I can feel myself start to get worked up so i close my eyes and take deep breaths calming myself down, trying to at least. I check the time on the clock that's on the wall a few feet away from me and notice I've been here for an hour already.
Everyone would be meeting up for lunch right now while I'm just here, crying in a coffee shop. Jesus is pathetic, who lets a guy you're not even dating take your first kiss. God I want to strangle Ezra and then myself, if you can even do that.
I've only read about a chapter of my book because I can't focus properly and my eyes fill with tears every five seconds. I close my book and just rest my head on the table, my drink is long finished and i dont have the energy to get another.
I feel like i could be overreacting but i also think my reaction is justerfiled, ok maybe i shouldn't have left like that but i couldn't stay there either. I'm honestly considering bashing my head against this table right now, how is this my life?
instead I make the stupid deciton to turn on my phone and low and behold i have a bunch of messages from my friends but also a lot from Ezra. I don't bother to reply or even look at them, instead I just call abby.
