"Aaj phir tumhari yaad aane lagi... Na chahte hue bhi... Dil ko samjha liya tha tumhare bare mein nhi sochna hai... Tumne jo kuch bhi kiya woh kaabil-e-maafi bilkul nhi tha...
Har baar tune mera dil toda hai, mujhse gaddari ki hai... Aisa vaade kiye hai jo tum kabhi pure karne ki ehsiyat rakhte hi nhi the! Agar itna hi pyaar tha desh se toh mujhe shaadi ke khawab dikhate hi nhi... Jhoote vaade, jhooti kasme khate hi nhi! Kyu kiya Anubhav tumne aisa?" Haseena wrote his name and erased it. She scribbled on that word so harshly that one could see a small hole in the page.
A fresh page...
" Jaane se pehle tune socha tak nhi kya haal mera hoga,
Mushkil se juda dil pichli baar se bhi jyada buri tarah toota hoga,
Jo muskaan mehfil ki raunak badhati thi,
Ussi muskaan par gum ka saya hoga,
Jaane se pehle tune socha tak nhi kya haal mera hoga!"
Haseena tore the page off her book and threw it in the dustbin. She was filled with self-disgust and anger. She was writing for the last 2 hours but nothing was working. She finally decided to go downstairs.
"Kya chal raha hai yaha?" she asked as soon as she saw the rush inside the 'Mahipal Mansion' "Haseena... Beta aagyi tum neeche... Tumhe hi bulane aarha tha main!" Mahipal called her to sit on the sofa...." Rurda aarha hai..." "Sach main? Aur kitne din keliye?" " 2 mahine" "bass? Do mahine? Thik hai... Aa raha hai na... Enough hai humare liye!"
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Haseena and Rudra knew eachother for the past 29 years. He was the eldest son of Mahipal Singh, making him Haseena's childhood bestfriend. Contrary to popular belief that 'ladka aur ladki sirf dost nhi ho sakte' they were best of friends. Rudra was a CEO of a multi-million MNC, settled in Paris. He was a soft spoken and chivalrous man.
" Haseena, kya halat kar di hai iss kamre ki... Aur yeh aise kapde rakhti ho tum? Workstation par itna mess... " "Khushi hui tumse mil kar!" Haseena taunted him in her iconic way. "Sorry buddy! But tumhe tang kiye bagair mujhe chain nhi milta!" Rudra pulled her into a bone crushing hug. " Kaisi ho tum? " "Bait-ul-huzn main..." "Are bapre. Itna ala darze ka urdu? Kuch serious baat hai?" "Hmmm" "Batana chahegi kya hua?"
Haseena and Rudra were at the backyard of the house, having a cup of coffee. "Rudra, hume aajtak lagta tha, hume innsano ki parakh hai, hum logon ko pehechan lete hai,par iss baar hum galat the..." Saying this, she narrated all the incidents, everything regarding Anubhav to him.
"Pata hai, ghinn aati hai khud ki, aise innsan se pyaar karte the hum... Ya shayad abhi bhi karte hai. Kyu? Har dukh se, har hadse se bade jaldi humne move on kar liya, par iss wale se kyu nhi... "
" Par move on karna hi kyu hai? Matlab dekh, woh hadsa, tumhari ruh ka ek hissa hai, tum usse bhula nai sakti. You cannot completely disregard it! How much you deny, you are a part of it and it is yours. All you need is to accept that. "
"It's easy to say!"
A breeze of cold air passed; Haseena's hair got ruffled because of it.
"Aye hawa, Humara azeez ab humari mehfil main nhi..
Dua bass ek hi tumse hai,
Yeh latein bhi ab suljhi hi rahen..."
" Haseena..."
" Ammi bhi ab nikah ke peecha lagi hai... Keh rahi hai jald se jald hume shaadi kar leni chahiye..."
"Aur tumne nhi karni? Hai na?"
"Haan..." Haseena sighed gloomyly
"Par kyu?"
"Rudra... tum jannte ho humare liye loyalty kya cheez hai... Hum woh aankhe bhula nhi paa rahe... Tumhe pata hai, jab unhone uss situation main kaha ke woh humse pyaar karte hai... Uss main sacchai dikhi hume... Woh lafz bht iffat se kahe gaye the... Unnke lazfo main woh saadgi thi... Aur woh kaise bhi innsan ho humne puri nishtha se unnse mohobbat ki... Aur yun ek jhatke main hum aise kaise sab badal daalein?
" sapne humne bhi sajaye the jawaani se budhaape tak... Par jisske saath sajaye the woh saath nahi raha. Isska matlab yeh nhi ke hum unn sapno par ka unnka haqq unnse chinn le!"
" Kisike saath woh sapne nhi sajane... Haseena unnki thi aur rahegi. Humesha."
"Thik hai... Main baat karta hu khala se... Keh deta hu tumhe yun rishtey bhej kar tang na karein. Fine with you?"
"Yeah. Can you do me a favor?"
" Yes. At your service ma'am!"
"Drive par chalein?"
"Sure! Let me grab my keys!"
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Humari gair maujudgi keliye hum aapke kshama prarthi hai par kya karein? Zindagi main badi afra-tafri mach gayi thi. Bade din baad hume fursat mili hai. Socha yahan kuch likh dein.
Aap sabki jaankari keliye bata dein, humne 'anti-anubhav squa' main hissa nahi liya hai. Hume bass Haseena ke dil ka haal batane ke maqsad se yeh likha gaya hai. Ek hi darkhwast hai dil par na lein.
Agala hissa jald di!
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Bait-ul-huzn= house of sadness
Iffat= purity
~ devotee.
Tip: READ THE PART WITH 'KHABAR-E-THAYYUR-E-ISHQ" PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND!!
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FanfictionThe philosophy of continuous improvement. Here you will find some delicate carving of human relations, coping up with grief, some expectations meeting the reality 🍂 Hope you all get what you all are thriving for. 🧿🪬
