IM SO SORRY IVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG.. I DIDNT MEAN TO!!!!!! my mental health fucked me over SO SO MUCH MORE than it ever has. im still not okay and im not going to be for a very long time. at the moment i'm just looking for the little things that made me happy while i was coping with having to leave my friends the first time, those little things being the wind in my hair and feathers you know how it is.
look, i'll probably come and go a lot still. i don't know if i'm even actually coming back. let me be super serious for a minute.
my mental health is at an all time low, i don't think it's ever gotten worse than this. i'm trying my best and i'm just barely making it through the motions right now. the prospect of having wings is what kept me going two years ago, and i'm hoping it's gonna keep me going now. i don't know if i'm actually going to come back any time soon, but i'll be back for good one day. this community has made such an impact on my life in these three years that i would never be the same without it.
i'm barely surviving right now, but i'm hoping the dream of flying will help me live a little bit. my one ideal in life right now is to fly away from this horrible state and go back home to my friends. not even to leave the state, just to fly. i just want to be up there and feel the wind and be able to scream and fall through the air and soar and just FLY.
so! i don't know if i'm gonna be staying for very long, but i will not be gone for good! i'm here for now! and on that note:
i'm going to be making a flock!
this is just to keep me on task and also... i have an online friend group now so it's much easier for me to talk to people online! i currently don't plan on living with a flock, so if you're interested in a purely online flock where we're just friends and buddies and pals then look no further and pleaseeee check out the book i'm about to make where i talk about it hehe
i think thats it for my silly little return! goodbyeeee for now
-tommy
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Growing Wings: My Avian Journal
Non-Fictionhey dudes! i'm cal, and i'm an avian! this journal is where i'll document wing growing. (this is the second journal btw, but you don't need to read the first) THIS IS COMPLETELY REAL, DON'T READ IF YOU'RE HERE TO BE MEAN, THANKS!
