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Lisa

Playlist: About Today | The National
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I woke up like I was coming out of a coma. Layers of unconsciousness peeled themselves back, one at a time.

I probably shouldn’t have taken that Ambien with bourbon, but I’d already had one glass when Zane showed up with the pills. I’d needed a drink after three Red Bulls and the conversation with Jennie, and frankly I’d forgotten I’d promised to take the damn thing.

I looked between the two glasses on my nightstand for the one that had water and not whiskey in it and gulped it down. Then I felt around groggily for the hotel phone and dialed Jennie, rolling away from the window and the blinding light coming in from the crack in the curtain.

It went straight to voicemail.

Man, that Ambien was no joke. I’d been knocked out without even getting under the damn covers. I didn’t even remember getting undressed. Hell, I didn’t even remember getting on the bed.

The wireless hotel phone rang in my hand. I rubbed my eyes and hit the Answer button. “What’s up?”

“Have you talked to Jennie?” It was Zane.

I scratched my cheek. “Not today. Why?”

“I’m on my way up, open your door. Jennie showed up last night and Lola was in your room.”

I bolted up straight. “What?!”

“It’s not good news. I’ll be there in a second.”

I leapt off the bed and jumped into pants.

Zane pounded from the outside and I ran to let her in. She barged in talking. “I was at the breakfast buffet and Courtney told me. Lola came down last night. She was in Jessa’s room, and Jennie was knocking on your door. You must have left the adjoining door between your rooms unlocked because Lola came in and answered it.”

She grabbed the knob and sure enough, the door on my side creaked open into the room.

Fuck, I could have done anything last night and not remembered it. I was half-drugged on sleeping pills and whiskey.

I dove for the phone and dialed Jennie again and it went to voicemail. Mailbox full.

I moved to the connecting door between our rooms and pounded on Jessa’s inner door. “Jessa! Open up!”

She opened it, still half-asleep. I could see Lola passed out on the bed behind her. She was wearing nothing but one of my merch sweatshirts and underwear. Jesus Christ, was this what Jennie had come home to?

“Did you let Lola in my fucking room last night?” I asked.

Jessa pushed the side of her pink hair up and yawned. “Yeah. Some crazy bitch was banging on your door at one in the morning.”

“That crazy bitch was Jennie. What the fuck were you thinking?”

Jessa’s eyes went wide. “It was Jenn— Oh, shit. I…dude, it was loud. We thought it was an emergency. Lola tried waking you up first, but you were knocked out. She kicked your bed and everything.”

I didn’t let her finish. I slammed the door in her face.

“Shit!” I paced. “I have to find her. We had a fight, we weren’t okay.”

Zane was calm. “Any idea where she might have gone? Any family in Vegas? Friends?”

“I don’t know. I don’t think so.” Panic descended on me like black flies, swarming.