Teach Me How To Kiss

Crazy For You

We met up with Isaiah at Camp Pendleton and Janet stayed with him while I met up with Terri; I was supposed to meet him in the cafeteria. There were a couple of Marines inside, so I thought maybe a walk would be a better option. I heard some more people coming and they had the worst vulgar English I had ever heard. I couldn't wait to see the creep that spoke like that; disappointment doesn't begin to describe my feelings as I witnessed Terri lead the pack.

He sat next to me like nothing; he didn't even notice my disgust. I didn't recognize this person and I didn't know how to go about this break up. To make matters worse, I committed the greatest mistake ever by starting out with the words that I chose.

"Terri, we need to talk."

Terri's face turned to stone. His eyes squinted and his lips pressed together hard. I suggested that we take a walk outside, but was stunned when he nodded and rudely motioned for me to continue as he took a seat.

"I don't know who you are anymore Terri. I want to be here for you but …I'm just not happy."

"So you think that the moment you are unhappy in a relationship you should just give up, because you are meant to be in a constant state of 'happiness'?" He argued.

"It's not just that, it's a few things."

"No, I get it. I know I've been distant and Ihaven't catered to you like I did before. But you will never understand what goes through my mind 24/7. I close my eyes and I see those …those…Cretans, and all I want is revenge; they're scum. I've been fighting around here for them to just send me back and kill them ALL!"

My eyes swelled as I heard him and saw the fire in his stare again. He was lost and I didn't have the strength for the both of us anymore.

"I think we need to take a break." I spoke softly a bit terrified.

"I'll do you a favor and leave now." Terri finished and got up to leave.

"Terri." I called once and then again.

He continued walking outside. I wanted to leave things better than this. It seemed that whatever I said as an explanation was a coward excuse to him. I ran after Terri and touched his arm but he swung it away.

"Just leave Brynn. Looking at you is only making me angrier."

"I'm sorry Terri." I said lowly, though I don't think he heard me. "Why are you so angry?"

"You'd never understand."

…

Terri saved me from my break up with Aaron, but now who would save me from my break up with Terri? I was relieved and regretful at the same time. I wanted to believe what I did was right and necessary but it didn't change my feelings. I refused to talk to anyone about it for the moment, except for Janet. She even offered to stay with me for a while, but I wanted to be alone for a while.

I must say I enjoyed having MY place; no one to bother me. Instead of showing up to work with a pitiful countenance I made sure to act like things were better than okay; It was the safest way to avoid unwanted conversations and questions. Devin on the other hand could never be fooled. And although he played along for a while he later made sure to corner me in private. Only this time I stuck to my story and said that Terri and I had ended things peaceably.

And slowly but surely I regained my strength and peace with the passing weeks. All I needed now was a new sense of inspiration.

Maybe I was starting to develop a 'wild' or 'free' spirit, but falling into a routine seemed more and more unsatisfying to me. Granted, months turned into a year and I had made quite the name for myself. My mother even challenged me to the idea of opening my own bakery in the future. With that crazy idea in mind I proceeded to further my degree in a broader culinary program; what was stopping me?