Seven Unfortunate Lifetimes (Love You Seven Times)

Chapter 8

I looked down because I didn’t want to look him in the eye.

“These few years, there was no opportunity. I also delayed Yun Xiang. As it happens, now there is some free time, so, so I thought we could marry… just now, I also convinced uncle. Yun Xiang, do you agree to this marriage?”

I couldn’t think of anything, so I just told him, “I need to return to the capital to help my father. I’m going to marry the third prince.”

His face paled hearing those words. I pushed Lu Hai Kong away. I scratched my head and said, “You don’t have to worry, I’m still pondering.”

Lu Hai Kong tugged at my sleeve and didn’t let go.

“I know that Yun Xiang sacrificed many things when you came with me to the north, and you’ve also suffered a lot of injustice. No matter what, you’ve always stayed by my side. I know that Yun Xiang is good to me; I don’t want to disappoint Yun Xiang….”

I rubbed my forehead. I hadn’t really experienced much injustice after I came here. Firstly, because I was at Lan Xiang’s liquor house the whole day, I hadn’t heard much gossip. Secondly, I, as the daughter of the prime minister, had been living safe and sound on the ‘enemy’s ground’ because of Lu Hai Kong. He would have suffered more injustice than I did.

Ordinarily, in these circumstances, I would’ve accepted his proposal. Yet this afternoon, student Qing Shan brought such a news. Although in this life, I didn’t have much sense, but filial piety was still something that I needed to keep.

I thought for a long time, before I finally thought of an excuse. “Lu Hai Kong, you said I’m good to you, and that you didn’t want to disappoint me, but do you love me?”

After asking this, I shuddered. I kept the nauseating feelings in check and kept asking,  “You respect me, you honor me, but what I want is not these. This is not love between man and woman; this is not love between couples. You…need to think again.”

Lu Hai Kong was startled. He didn’t think that I would say those words. He thought for a moment, then said,  “I don’t understand that, but in this life, I will not marry someone else. Yun Xiang, the one who needs to think again is you.”

He didn’t force me to explain anything. He just smiled and said, “Yun Xiang, if you’re willing, come to me and say it. If you want to postpone it, then we’ll postpone it. The nights are cold. Yun Xiang, you need to keep warm. I’ll go back first.”

Looking at his disappearing figure, I firmly covered my face. Brat, do not laugh so beautifully, ah! You made me look like a child who had lost her temper! I was really embarrassed!

Three days later, I left a letter on the table in my room; I’m going to the mountain to hunt, and I don’t know when I’ll return. Lu Hai Kong, if you’ve decided to fight in the army, then fight. Don’t wait for me to come back before you marry.

Finally, I had decided to go alone to the south gate to follow student Qing Shan and Hei Wu back to the capital. I left because I knew that Lu Hai Kong could live well without me now, and because in the capital, there was aged father Song. There was also my maid Cui Bi, whom I hadn’t seen in a long time, along with many other people. They didn’t deserve to die because of the so-called political struggle, like what had happened to the general mansion five years ago—being burned to death without finding even the corpse.

If I go back, I could help them. I should go back.

The traveling back was a lot faster than traveling here. All the way, the roads were full of warning signs, the faces of the commoners full of panic. Unknowingly, I was also really nervous. In the north, I had isolated myself very well, and Lu Hai Kong had protected me very well too.